I Refused +


She refused this as a foreshadowing, but she was not, really, she was not glad that she listened to His album for the first time with great care that day. What she meant was that she really paid attention to the melody, and realised for the first time that they were good, and why she didn’t really listen to it at the first place? She genuinely enjoyed the songs, really, and she planned to move a few of her favourite to her phone.

And then that happened. And she refused, she refused dearly, that it was perhaps a sign; a sign that leaded to something very, very wrong.

That night when she tried to control her tears, and failed miserably, she thought of it over and over. What if she didn’t listen to them? She knew that it wasn’t that her action would delay and cancelled everything that happened the night after that, but she couldn’t help but wondering. Was that really a sign? Were people around the world experienced the same thing as her?

When she thought about this now, it was pointless to weep over this again and again. It was not like her tears would bring him back.

All that mattered now was the people he left behind. And that was including the whole world that listened to him dearly; those people who were always praying for his happiness and health, those people who were not as clueless as they thought, yet they missed the hint.

If only.

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+ posted on 20180201 at 18:11
Hello +


January, 26th 2018.

The first post in twenty eighteen; finally I went back to my normal uni life. Not yet, though, it’s still one (or two) week left –but here I am in my lodging room, far, far away from my hometown.
The first thing I did was rebuilding my desk shelf. And then I took a bath. And then I decided to watch Jonghyun’s video, for the first time since the M/V was released a few days ago. I’d told myself that I didn’t want to watch it at home, since I still couldn’t trust myself, and it was the right choice. SM Entertainment was releasing two M/Vs, and I already broke down on the first one. And here I thought I couldn’t cry anymore. 
My laptop broke down as well. I brought my old laptop with me, as well as the new (and the broken) one. I couldn’t believe that this old laptop will be here with me in this city. There were lots of nostalgic events happening with this laptop, and this one was also broke down but I repaired it two years ago.
 
I felt silly for writing this, but I want to write something for my old blog. I’ve been abandoning that old blog; I just don’t really have time to write something there.
I pre-ordered Jonghyun’s album yesterday, and I was planning to buy SHINee’s latest repackage album, since that was the last five-member album. I didn’t tell my mother –as if I ever told her whenever I bought something like that.
I don’t know. Let’s not start this year with gloominess.

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+ posted at 18:08
Another BTS HYYH theory; SeeU, Hitman Bang, GLAM, and some other shits. +
So.
My friend suddenly brought up BTS's HYYH theories and she asked me to write it, so, yeah.
Sachi, you lil shit, I still can't find the post you said before!

Actually this is not a theory. I mean, this is not the theory for the whole storyline of HYYH concept. This is about the origin of HYYH concept.

A lot of ARMYs said that Big Hit planned this concept since long time ago, some ARMYs even thought it was from No More Dream era. They found a lot of evidence, which is I can't legit post here because it's all around twitter. If you actually follow their activity through twitter, and you chat with another ARMYs around the world, I swear you must have heard about this.

In short, we assumed that Big Hit really planned this HYYH concept since Bangtan's debut.

But why?

Well, just five hours ago, my friend (who is a huge fan of Vocaloid) brought up a screen shot of Vocaloid SeeU performing live in MNET. She pointed out about Namjoon's name in the producer section of the song. It's GLAM's I Like That, and we casually chatted about GLAM disbandment and how it's affecting SeeU since Dahee is SeeU's voice bank.

Anyway, SeeU is the first Korean Languaged Vocaloid. You can search it up in Google :)

And then, she said she read my previous theory about HYYH concept (you can read it here). And she said that actually, it's SeeU's concept.

Confused? Okay.

Every vocaloid character have its concept. For example, Hatsune Miku's is 'The first sound from future' means that Miku is the first one to make changes on music industry's future. I mean, she's only a hologram that can sings, and she can gain a lot of fans by that. It's the future music, she is from the future.

You get it?

Back to SeeU,
My previous theory roughly said that the main idea of the whole HYYH concept is actually simple. It's according to us how we interpret the messages they put in there. I've read a lot of theories in tumblr and/or twitter, and every single post there have the same point: growing up.

SeeU's original concept is "Vocaloid that can create anything you want". It's kind of similar with the whole HYYH concept according to me.

SeeU can create everything, it's up to you what you want to create.
We (BTS) leave messages through this video to your youth, it's up to you how you take that in.


The only legit proof of this right now is from her first song in production: I=Fantasy.
Wait,
I know this is not enough for me to make a theory about this but then my friend said that she legit read this on a forum years ago. She strongly said that she did remember about it, about the concept of SeeU on her very first launching.

I'm still doing the reasearch to Google and a lot of Vocaloid forums to find the article she read. I hope I can find it very soon and linked the thread here.

Let's assume that the thread (about SeeU's concept) is exist, because on some point it is really make sense (with the whole thing about 'Big Hit planned HYYH concept since years ago'.

Back to SeeU,
I=Fantasy was created by Hitman Bang, the father of our lovely boys. He made the lyric.
It's seen on the lyric:

I'm a dream, a dream, I'm a dream
I=Fantasy Fantasy

I'm an open door, a door, put anything through me
Have fun with me, let me take care of you
I'm, I=Fantasy

The bold line clearly says that SeeU is a dream, SeeU is a fantasy, so it's possible for her to create anything.

And how is this connected to BTS' HYYH?

Well, as we know, Big Hit's girl group, GLAM, was disbanded after Dahee's scandal. And Dahee is SeeU's voice bank. It's simply mean that Dahee is SeeU's voice actress. Since Dahee is jailed, SeeU is now also deactivated and not sold anymore. Her website is also being taken down.

And with that, SeeU is done.

SeeU's first appearance is on 2011.
GLAM debuted in 2012.
BTS debuted in 2013.

Since SeeU is no more promising, and GLAM is too, why not giving this concept to our rookie, BTS?
This explained how Big Hit is already planned this since BTS's No More Dream era.

How if Big Hit give this concept to BTS with some changes? What if Big Hit creative team bring up this concept when Namjoon say they want to make a song about youth's shits?

Bam.

Or maybe the whole HYYH thing is not originally from Namjoon and the rest of the gang. Maybe someone in Big Hit already planned Bangtan's album line up, like the transition of School Luv Affair trilogy to Dark and Wild to HYYH.

It's all planned, I believe that. I think they didn't just sit down and casually said "Hey, what's for our next comeback?"

Actually, SeeU's concept is not that dark.
SeeU's first official debut song is titled RUN. And if you search it up on Google, the lyric is the total opposite of BTS's RUN.

By dark I mean we see a lot of suicidal thought in those M/Vs, right?
I think when they (Big Hit creative team - or whatever it called) planned BTS's album line up, they thought of SeeU's concept but then it didn't quite fit with Bangtan's hip hop theme. Plus, Namjoon and the rest said that they want to make something about youth, so, why not darkening the concept a bit?

In short, what am I trying to say here is,
This HYYH concept is legit created from long time ago, with a lot of thinking and editing. I just want to confirm it, lol, since nobody talks about this. Well, as long as I know. Everyone simply talk about 'oh my, they already planned this since God know when' but they didn't ask why or how.

But then, HYYH's general idea is great. Very great. Like what I said, the main storyline itself is a simple one. Maybe a great idea in general. But the general idea itself is the problem. It can creates an ENDLESS storyline, if we want to take a moment and seriously think about it.

But it's about one thing for sure. It's about youth, and how are we dealing with shits in our youth life.

:)

Tell me what you think! And feel free to correct me if I wrong!










also posted on my tumblr here

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+ posted on 20160613 at 23:23
screw everything +
I am pathetic; a miserable, sorrowful, and another adjective that can describes me right now.

When the tears were shed, it wasn’t spilled out by my own eyes. It was not mine. But I could sense a heavy tension in the air. Hung like a personal cloud on every person’s head. Something’s up. I knew it.

When people started to rise up to their feet and the tension was not as heavy as before, I stood up, and my legs felt like shaking. Something’s up. And then choices appeared after my eyes. Apologize, or not? 

It was never like this. I was afraid. Of something I didn't know. My legs felt like jelly, I couldn’t stand still, my head was dizzy, and I realized that my hands trembled. It was never like this. I wasn’t being me, I realized that later. Later, when I regretted the choice I choose.

I didn’t even sure that this is necessary. I kept telling myself that it’s not worth my tears, and, somehow I was proud that I can fool myself. But deep down in my heart I was crying and shouting. Screamed. For something that I couldn’t change anymore.

I was a fool. I fell and I couldn’t get up. I fell and I let myself scattered inside the pit. I fell and I refused people’s offered hand to me. I let myself fall. It couldn’t be worse than that.

Was it that hard? To stood up and simply say, “Hey, I’m sorry for...”

Yes. It is hard. 

Somehow the time to brought me back to my feet was coming, but I didn’t grasp the chance. The cries were now useless. I had time to make it up, actually, but that was a perfect time to apologize. And I choose the second choice.

I missed the chance. I regretted it so much.




March, 31st 2016
I hate myself.

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+ posted on 20160331 at 20:54
Funny Things pt. 2 +
Hello.
Tomorrow is my school's final exam (UAS) and I am not studying at all; I write this instead of studying. Great.
This is just a random rant about my classmates again; because observing society is fun, really.

So there is one girl in my class who is, um, kinda have a close relationship with someone in my class to. They don't want to be together (based of what I heard) but they are practically together in every time possible - so, I don't get the point why they don't want to go on a proper relationship instead.

And her friends, apparently, are not fond by their relationship. I found this funny because the friends are her really best friend, I mean, like a circle of friends, you know, that typical circle of friends that will go to bathroom together, or go to canteen together, you know what I mean?

And the funniest thing is how they talk behind her about her relationship. Actually I don't know this fact for sure, but, yesterday this circle was gossiping about their friend in canteen. I didn't mean to eavesdropping them, but I had to sat near them when I ate my lunch. They didn't mind me being there, tho, knowing that I wouldn't tell that to her.
So, yes, I stayed and listened to all their rants about their particular friend.

They didn't approve their relationship because she's become more annoying. She neglected her friends, she didn't do the group project because she was busy talking with her, um, her crush? Well, anyway, in short, she is annoying.

What I didn't get was - why didn't they try to talk to her? I mean, they are her friends, right? Friends can remind her if she's being jerk or something, right? Why talk behind her back, why not talk to her directly, why, I thought it will be more convenient?

I remind you once again, I don't know this fact for sure. Maybe they already talk in their own groupchat or something - I don't know. Okay.

This gossiping thing was happening on Saturday.
And then on Saturday evening, her 'boyfriend' was changing his Whatsapp status from 'Yup' to 'How rude, visible, mocking.'
I don't know if this status is for them, lmao, but I think it is. Or is it just me who easily jump into conclusion, idk.

Because on that Saturday, when her friends were gossiping on the canteen, she was alone with her 'boyfriend' in the class, and she got that bad mood expression all over her face. I think she knew that she was being talked by her friends.
But she let them.
Because she can't do anything about that, lmao.
So I stayed with her in the class just for a simple chat and play along with her 'nothing-is-happening' action for the rest of school time. It was lucky for her because her friends were skipping school after the first period.

It is funny, isn't it?

I mean, is that what they called friends? Or is it just a society? Oh, great, I think it's a society.
I think it's better to talk to her face to face about this right away - and peacefully search for a solution.
If she's ignoring her friends, why don't you ask her why is she doing that, why you ignoring us, why you don't play with us again, etc. etc.
If she doesn't do the group project, why don't you tell her, half-jokingly (for the sake of peacefulness) to do the work too.
Why, why, why.

I don't get it. Or is it just me. Who never socializing with people. Is this how society works these days.
And like what I said in my 'Funny Things' post earlier;
Why you make friends if in the end you will talk about them on their back, seriously.

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+ posted on 20160306 at 22:02
Hello +
So.

I really want to write about my early December holiday, but something else caught in my mind and I think the holiday thing can wait.

This is another crap of mine, haha, and I don't even sure I want to write this here.




So, is it wrong to not wanting for a change?

And please forget the grammar, thank you.

I am 17 years old now; everyone in my family speaks about my future; my future occupation, my future university, my future life. And, plus, they talk about maturing.

Mature is a qualitative thing, they can't be measured by scales. Each person in this world has the different opinion about maturing.

17 is the age which is considered as a mature age.
We can get our drive license, our identity card, and we can vote as well in this age.

At this point I don't even know what I'm going to write.

So, I am growing up, and everyone else is too. Everyone keep talking about the uni, about how their future life; well, I am excited about that too, but then suddenly it is like they are leaving me alone.

You don't understand what I mean, do you?

Someone said that when we grow up, we left our childishness, became more rational, didn't play around, and, once again, became maturer.

But what if I don't want to do that?

This particular friend said that they didn't interested in this thing anymore; and by this thing is the thing that we used to like.

Well, I know that someone can be bored with something, and I don't blame them for that.
It is just me, who suddenly feel like I am being left out and they shout: 'please, if you can't be a mature person, don't join us.'

I KNOW change is good, change is just a different perspective, change is needed. But everytime I tried to escape my comfort zone I failed.

Why everyone is changing, why everyone is leaving me, why?

Laugh out loud, I know that this is just some of my imagination but I can't help to think about this. This kind of thing is always eating me up and I don't know how to get rid of it.

It is NOT like they leave me, right? They are not. But I can't help to feel like that.

Let's use an example.

Let's said that I liked to play with dolls. (I am not)
And when I get older, everyone says that "Oh, please. Playing with dolls is just for kids! Grow up, will ya?"
But I don't want to dislike dolls, because it makes me happy and forget about my problems and helps me from stressed myself out.
But when you grow older, you can't just ignore what the world says about you, right? Like, in society, your talking skills are needed, otherwise you will have trouble with making friends. The world says "bitch please, if you can't talk to me, you better go."

And the world says playing with dolls is just for kids.

So, is it wrong to feels like the world is leaving me alone because I am not a kid anymore but I still like to play with dolls?

Some people will say, "Be yourself, be honest, don't think about what people say about you, as long as you are in the right way."
But it is very hard to do, you know. With this kind of anxiety, ignoring what people said will make it feels more lonely.

Plus, if your best friend who used to like playing dolls with you said: "Uh, I don't really like doll anymore, sorry." what will you do? What will you feel?

Well, each person has different way of thought, anyway.

So back to the topic, is it wrong to not wanting for a change? I mean, I can be more mature, but I don't want to leave my childhood liking, because it's what I like for a long time and abandon it is just doesn't feels right in my opinion.

In another word, I don't want to leave my comfort zone. In this case, it is not I am afraid for the changes, but I'm sure I will miss it a lot and I don't know if I can find another stress-relieve.

DONE.

I am so done with myself, to be honest, and I don't know how to change myself. I'm too lazy. /snorts/

Anyway, I make this post not to offend anyone, this is just my thought, I blame myself for this, not you.

I am upgrading my laptop to Windows 10 right now and I can't think straight.

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+ posted on 20151221 at 00:26
THIS IS NOT A THEORY +
what a writer can learn from BTS's HYYH.

Big Hit is crazy.
No, the creative producers there are crazy.
We don't know the ACTUAL storyline yet (because there's zero explanation to us from them) but they could managed a confusing storyline for I NEED U and RUN M/V, and made us (ARMYs) think a lot about the storyline.

We came up with several theories, which was all make sense, and before we could confirm who's theory is true, Big Hit came and RUINED IT ALL with RUN M/V.

Laughing out loud; this situation is laugh-able, to be honest.

Who is dead? Jin or the rest of BTS?
Who is the man who stabbed by Taehyung?
Why Jungkook punched Yoongi?
Why Jimin drowned himself? What did he read in I NEED U M/V?
Why Hoseok overdosed himself?
Why Yoongi set the fire?
Why Namjoon wrote 'you need to survive' in the mirror?
Why Taehyung jumped to the sea? Why he got a scene in the water in RUN?
Where is Jin on the polaroid picture held by Jimin in the end of M/V?
Why Big Hit deleted the last scene from Prologue?
Where is Yoongi on the polaroid picture held by Jin in the end of Prologue?

The questions above are not even half of our questions.

Some of creative ARMYs were writing theories, and those theories were not based on nothing. They actually searched the base for their theories, and their source were no jokes.
Several bed-time stories come up, a deep thought about the back song Big Hit use in the Prologue, and even a Chinese philosophy.

Well, I'm not saying that ARMYs didn't do an astonishingly and amazingly good job, but those Big Hit's creative producers are the geniuses one in the first place.
They made us THINK, and if we think more about it, there would be another theory come up, and when we try to connect it with the videos, there would be another one!

Basically, I believed, the main storyline itself is a simple one. Maybe a great idea in general. But the general idea itself is the problem. It can creates an ENDLESS storyline, if we want to take a moment and seriously think about it.
We can jump into conclusion A, because it matches the video. But we can jump into conclusion B because, for example, the relationship between Namjoon and Taehyung is unknown. And conclusion C is make sense as well, because the whole videos (In The Mood For Love, I NEED U, Prologue, Nevermind, and RUN) is, probably, connected. And if we want to connect the photo teasers as well, we might find conclusion D.

How can a person come up with such a genius idea? I don't know.
I did read the theories, and I was confused as hell when they released RUN M/V.

So, like the title said, what can a writer learn from this?
The idea. The plot. The confusing storyline. The feromones that can make us interested and think about it all day.

Let's not talk about who's dead, lol. I don't know either. I will stick with the theory that said Jin was the one who still alive, because I don't feel right with Jin's death. Something is missing, but I don't know what.

Actually, the one that makes us interested is the actors, lol. We love Bangtan, we could do everything for them, so that's why we could came out with amazing theories.

The point is, how we create something that can attract many people. In BTS' case, well, they are idols, so it won't be difficult.
But for writers, we need to think about a unique story, a different one, so readers will interested and they will buy our book. This HYYH storyline is a great one of we want to make a serial novel.

Then how we create a unique story like that?
By reading. Read everything. Don't just read the genre you like. Just like in this case; who could tell that the actual plot is taken from Chinese philosophy or by Peter Pan's Neverland?
Well, HYYH is a good thing to be picked as an example.



So, this is the end of the post. I hope ppl don't judge my grammar, lol, I'm still learning.

Tell me what you think!



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+ posted on 20151130 at 13:58
Spekulasi +
Betapa mudahnya seseorang tersulut! Jika minyak seujung kukupun bisa berkobar, mengapa harus seember?

Berpikiran terbuka adalah keharusan -dalam kondisi apapun, tak peduli sedang khawatir atau terguncang. Sayangnya banyak hal yang membuat banyak orang tidak bisa berpikiran terbuka.

Tekanan adalah salah satu penyebab hilangnya akal sehat.

Dan begitu banyak spekulasi.

Hal ini bisa saja membunuh orang, oh, ya, benar. Berbagai dugaan tanpa fakta bisa membuat seseorang jadi gelap mata.

...

Not me, tho.

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+ posted on 20151028 at 21:59
Stereotypes +
Adalah hal berbahaya, like seriously. Suatu bangsa bisa aja tercemar nama baiknya dan mati karena alasan yang salah karena stereotip.
Dan orang-orang yang nggak mau membuka mata dan mengikuti suatu stereotip is the worst!

That's it.

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+ posted on 20151016 at 21:38
Funny Things +
I mostly have different opinion with my classmates, like, the way I think about agreeing to lgbt's freedom and my classmates think that those matters are illegal and should be banned.
Nice. Why I bring out that topic because this one post is slightly, I repeat, slightly has a relation with that topic.
Or I think so.

Well, this is about my friends who are kind of having too much skinship with each other. Females. They are best friends, and most of my friend thought that they are disgusting because they are too clingy with each other. Well, what's wrong with being too clingy?

From my point of view, the other friends, I mean, the ones who usually hang out with them too, start to stay away from them little by little.
And the worst thing is (in my opinion tho) those friends talk behind them about this. They think that that two friends is being like this, blah, blah, blah... My deskmate also complained about this yesterday.

Hoi, guys, are you jealous because the one that she trust isn't you? I mean, if you are really her friends, you should tell her right away that her 'too-much-lovey-dovey' actions is bothering you. Don't talk behind her back like that!

Today, she chatted an apologize text in our class whatsapp group chat, and somehow everyone start to blame her and they tell her about their feelings of disgust.
Well, I just laughed when I saw the chat when I got wi-fi signal this evening.

Anyway, the part that I hate the most is when the friends talk about this behind her back.  Let me tell about the situation first.
It's about a group that contains well-known students in my class, the celebrities, the extroverts, the popular, you get what I mean? And somehow I think that the friendship there is just too shallow. Well I don't know for sure, but this opinion is proofed by some of their actions.
And the action is... talk behind someone's back.
Whoa, the power of words.

I am in the neutral group. Tbh, I don't have a trustworthy friend in this class. I am independence! So, sometimes my appearance is just like Kuroko. Everyone just talk like I don't exist.
Sigh.
Well, it's kind of benefit, actually.
Well, back to the topic.
There's one day when my deskmate (which is also part of the popular group) told me about person A in that group which is being too wishy washy with her decision. And the topic expanded to the bad things that the person A have done.

There's one day when person B in that group talk with person C also from that group about person D from that group as well because she was getting angry and moody easily.

There's one day when person E talk with person F and me about his playboy nature and how everyone in the group is being seduced by him.

And there's one day when everyone in the group talk about this 'too clingy' friendship.

I'm so done.

Maybe this popular group isn't that serious when it comes to friendship. I mean, come on, if you are all friends, you shouldn't be afraid to tell them what's wrong in their actions, and don't just talk about their bad habit with everyone!
Pssh, I'm so mad about this. Why you make friends if in the end you will talk about them in their back seriously.


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+ posted on 20150929 at 21:49
Ansatsu kyoushitsu to watashi no class - opinion +
Jadi, ini post kilat setelah selama tiga jam baca ansatsu 4 volume di depan laptop nonstop. Nggak pakai kacamata lagi //mataku bertahanlah.

Warning, long post with subject which is very weaboo. So, please leave if you don't like, thank you.
Dan ini topik seputar manga Assassination Classroom (atau ansatsu biar cepet) oleh Matsui Yuusei. In general, mungkin bisa dicerna bagi yang nggak pernah baca manganya atau nonton animenya, tapi disarankan baca/nonton biar lebih greget dan ngeh gitu! //promosi
Dan karena Karma yang kubicarakan disini adalah seorang anak laki-laki rambut merah nyebelin dan bikin greget orang yang mirip Seijurou Akashi, bukan kata 'karma' yang berarti... berarti apa ya? //buka kamus

Dan, firstly, kehidupan perfect memang cuma ada di fiksi. Nggak mungkin kita dapat guru bahasa Inggris pembunuh bayaran kayak Irina, dan orang yang pinternya nggak tanggung kayak Asano.
Tapi paling nggak, setiap fiksi paling geje sekalipun ada moral valuenya. Dan Ansatsu ini moral valuenya jelas banget, pasti ada di setiap chapter atau di setiap permasalahan.
Moral valuenya banyaaak; jangan jadi orang sok lah, kita kudu pantang menyerah lah, kita kudu manfaatin segala kemampuan yang kita miliki lah, pokok banyak deh. (makanya, baca deh komiknya //lho)

Tapi yang mau aku tulis disini cuma masalah kelasnya.

Kelas 3-E itu isinya anak-anak yang, eh, istilahnya paling jelek di seluruh sekolah, ya nggak sih. Dan somehow ada satu orang yang-

bukan, Korosensei bukan orang.

-satu makhluk yang bisa bikin satu kelas itu jadi kompak dengan berbagai permasalahan yang ada. Dan masalah kelas ini bikin aku inget sama kelasku sendiri.

Kelasku, hahahahahaha, biasa aja sih sebenarnya. Tapi kesenjangannya itu lho, meskipun nggak sebesar kelas satu dulu, di kelas dua ini masih ada. Sudah berkali-kali kita ngadain 'honest-talk' tapi rasanya feeling 'nggak-bakal-bisa-jadi-satu' itu masih ada dan kentara banget.

Jadi, apakah kita butuh makhluk geje, mesum, plus baik hati yang bertentakel kuning buat bikin kelas kita jadi kompak?
Yak, sapa mau cosplay jadi Korosensei? //no

Menurutku, kelas 3-E itu bisa jadi kompak karena mereka punya satu tujuan yang sama, yaitu ngebunuh Korosensei. Disamping itu, cara ngebunuh makhluk aneh bertentakel kuning itu bisa dilakukan kalau mereka kerja sama. Nah, disitu letak permasalahannya. Kelas 3-E jadi kompak gara-gara mereka kerja sama satu kelas buat ngerencanain pembunuhan si guru bertentakel itu.

Oke, kalimat itu agakan gimana gitu ya //plak

Dan, lanjut, karena ini rencana pembunuhan, mereka harus bisa meng-eksplor sumber daya manusia yang ada di kelas itu. Intinya mereka jadi harus megenal satu sama lain dan ngerti potensi yang ada di satu sama lain. Contohnya si Itona. Sebenarnya dia anak geje nyebelin yang tiba-tiba muncul nyerang Korosensei pake tentakel punya dia sendiri. Tapi setelah tentakelnya ngilang, dan anak kelas 3-E baik-baik ke dia, ternyata si Itona guna juga 'kan? Dia pinter ngutek-ngutek alat elektronik gitu, jadi bisa bantuin temennya ngintip celana dalam cewek. NO. Jadi bisa bantuin temennya keluar dari penjara waktu kena trap di chapter 108.

Dan, kayaknya, si Itona bisa lepas dari tentakelnya gara-gara anak kelas 3-E nyelametin dia nggak sih? Jadi, peran penting dalam membuat kekompakan kelas kalau mengacu pada kelas 3-E yaitu ... Jangan dendam, jadilah anak yang pemaaf, jangan terlalu kebakar emosi! Nah.

Bisa dilihat di sepanjang chapter... Setiap kali ada karakter nyebelin baru yang masuk jadi penghuni kelas 3-E (jadi anak kelas itu maksudnya) anak kelas yang lama bakalan sebel pada awalnya. Terus ntar si Korosensei nyadarin bahwa ada sesuatu yang bikin anak itu berkelakuan nyebelin gitu, dan anak kelas 3-E bakalan "Oh, makanya dia berkelakuan gitu ya?" dan mereka bakalan berusaha buat menyadarkan si anak nyebelin itu biar nggak nyebelin, dan ending-endingnya si anak nyebelin itu bisa jadi kekuatan tersendiri bagi mereka buat nyempurnain rencana ngebunuh Korosensei.

That's the point, kalau ada satu anak nyebelin di kelas, kita kudu tahu kenapa mereka kok bisa nyebelin, dan menemukan solusinya BERSAMA-SAMA. Bukannya malah pakai cara endless nyindir. //sorry not sorry

Oke. Stop. Sampai sini kayaknya sudah amat sangat menggurui. Maafkan saya. Tapi curcolan ini masih berlanjut.

Sepanjang aku baca ansatsu ini (di lepi, dengan mata terpancar radiasi desktop selama berjam-jam uhuhu) aku beneran ngiri sama kondisi kelasnya. Bukan ruang kelasnya sih. Bobrok gitu -3- //eh
Tapi sama isi kelasnya. Kelas 3-E itu isinya komplit, ada yang tukang onar, ada yang pinter banget, ada yang diem, ada yang biasa aja... pokok lengkap lah. Yang bikin aku seneng itu mereka bisa bikin keragaman itu jadi suatu kekuatan. Yah, meskipun disini kekuatan membunuh gurunya, sih. Dan mereka ber... ber berapa itu satu kelas? Pokok, mereka semua itu saling percaya satu sama lain, yang endingnya bikin mereka betah di kelas itu dan nggak mau pindah ke kelas lain yang lebih baik.

Yah, sekali lagi saya ketikkan, kehidupan perfect itu cuma ada di fiksi.

To be honest, I never felt that same feeling in my class. Is it just me, or, when the rumor that our soon third grade's classmate will be re-mixed announced, I didn't feel like "Oh, what?? But I don't want that!". I just accepted the news easily and "Oh, really? It's okay then,". I'm not sorry.

That's why, baca Ansatsu ini benar-benar menyenangkan.

Yah, disamping aku baca karena NagisaxKarma sih.

Dan, OH, ada satu hal yang kurang di kelasku di sekolah. KITA NGGAK PERNAH DAPET GURU YANG NGERTI KITA KAYAK KOROSENSEI.

Well, nggak mungkin banget sih, sebenarnya, kita punya guru yang bakalan benar-benar tau kondisi kelas kita luar dalam, karena kalo di real life kita cenderung menghindari guru, ahahahahaha.

Tapi, the lack of teacher itu yang sebenarnya bisa bikin kelas berpotensi untuk amburadul.

Kalau diperhatikan sejak chapter awal-awal, yang bikin semua anak di kelas 3-E semangat itu Korosensei. Yang nyeramahin mereka pas ada anak nyebelin itu Korosensei. Yang nyadarin dan ngerubah sifat anak nyebelin itu Korosensei (Karma tuh huahaha). Jadi kalau diliat-liat si guru itu juga pegang peran penting buat keselamatan, no, kesejahteraan anak didiknya.

Oke, mungkin sampai sini bakal ada yang argumen
"Lho, kan ada BK, kan biasanya guru itu bakalan nyeramahin anak nakal gitu, tapi lihat hasilnya, nggak efektif!"

Yah, lihat dulu nyeramahinnya gimana.

Entah ya, apakah di dunia nyata beginian bisa berhasil apa enggak aku juga nggak tahu. Tapiii, gimana kalau nyeramahinnya pake cara baik-baik? Maksudku, bukan dengan "Kamu jangan ngerokok! Ngerokok bisa bikin kamu penyakitan!" tapi dengan lebih mencontohkan hasil nyata dari perbuatannya. Kalau langsung ngelarang gitu bakalan malah bikin si anak jadi makin pingin ngelakuin!
Dan bukan dengan dipanggil ke kantor dan diceramahin, tapi dengan si guru ngomongin santai macam sambil makan di kantin gitu deh.

Ah, mbulet ah.

Jadi, ini sudah hampir jam dua pagi dan aku semakin ngantuk. Ini curcolan semakin ngawur saja isinya.

Jadi, balik ke masalah kelas.

Ada satu lagi masalah yang bikin kelas jadi nggak enak. Anak pendiam! Berdasarkan referensi dari kehidupan sehari-hari, anak pendiam biasanya bakalan terus didiamkan.... teruusss dan terus hingga akhir masa sekolahnya, dan biasanya dia cuma bakalan punya beberapa teman aja, yang nggak jarang juga sama diamnya.
Gimana kalau dibikin kayak masalahnya si Okuda Manami si maniak kimia di 3-E... Dia kan pendiam tuh (yah, berdasarkan apa yang digambarkan di komiknya, sih) dan cara anak kelas 3-E buat dia nggak terlalu kuper itu dengan membuatnya bisa melebarkan sayap dengan kemampuannya, yaitu ahli kimia. Dan, yak, bisa dibilang sekarang si Okuda jadi pemasok racun-racun dan ramuan-ramuan lain buat rencana pembunuhan Korosensei.

That's another point, jangan sindir anak pendiam gara-gara diamnya. Find their skill first, then let them spread their wings.
Yah, misal ada anak pendiam gamer otaku yang suka mojok di kelas dengan headset terpasang dan mata terpaku di layar hape yang ternyata lagi muter anime ecchi terbaru //what. Eh, ternyata dia pinter fisika! Yah, jangan malah dihina gara-gara suka nonton ecchi-nya. Bikin dia merasa terbutuhkan, minta mereka ngerjain soal-soal fisika yang kita nggak paham, dan thank them for that. Ulangi cycle itu, sampai mereka ngerasa "Ah, ternyata temenku ngebutuhin aku juga."
Well, kalau itu anak nggak mau ngebuka diri juga ya berarti dia yang agakan geje. //gak

//btw itu "anak gamer otaku yang suka mojok di kelas dengan headset terpasang dan mata terpaku di layar hape yang ternyata lagi muter anime ecchi terbaru" berasal dari karangan saya semata. Tidak merujuk pada seseorang tertentu yang saya kenal.
//ngakak

Apalagi ya...

Ah, pokok intinya kelas 3-E itu keren deh. Anak-anaknya saling mensupport, they trust each other, dan yang paling penting mereka merasa nyaman sama kondisi kelas mereka walaupun belajar di gedung bobrok di tengah gunung gitu. I want that class so badly - but, well, all I can do is accepting what I have now.
Dan mereka punya Korosensei yang bisa ngesupport mereka dalam kondisi apapun dengan kekuatan Mach-nya itu. I want that kind of teacher!!

//sedot idung

Dan untuk mengakhiri post geje ini... alangkah baiknya untuk tetap sadar diri dan menyadari bahwa kelas seperti itu sangat susah untuk didapatkan....

Oyasumi ~

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+ posted on 20150717 at 23:12
As Always +
Hello.
My class is on a chaos, as always. I believe I already said about the musical drama project. That thing will be presented next Monday, and we haven't do anything yet. By anything isn't like we don't have a script or something! We have a script, we have the actors already, and we already practiced. But that's not enough. We don't have a fix list for the songs, and the costume, and the properties!
And now my class is debating on whatsapp, about how we should practice, and this, and that, and how we didn't have a proper practice yesterday, etc. etc.
If only I can exit the group without being noticed.


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+ posted on 20150324 at 19:06
It's Literally One In The Morning +
and I have too many thoughts on my mind. I need to ask for an apology to certain someone, I need to improve my study, I need to this and that... Why life is not easy.

And why I'm writing this thing in the early morning is just because I'm worried about something for the nth time -the same problem, the same thought. I don't want to write it here, because, hell, it just  too unimportant and so silly. Like, you will cringe and say "It's not a big deal, you know. You just over think something."

sigh.

So, let's sleep.

:)

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+ posted on 20141207 at 01:10
힘내자 우리. +
Well, I don't believe Allkpop that much since they always bring up something like silly gossips around our bias (Condom on Jin's post for example) but this one is helping me sort everything up, so, yeah.

http://www.allkpop.com/article/2014/11/bts-fans-take-up-arms-to-show-their-love-for-j-hope

Well, I was online when ARMYs brought the hash tag up. I just knew that someone was bashing Hoseok and the entire fandom was defending him as usual. I even created one tweet about him too, with the hash tag on and my fav picture of him (the one when he looks SO PRETTY I JUST CAN'T omo omo okay staph). But I don't know that the problem is much bigger than that.

well, according to allkpop... you can read it by yourself by the way.

I JUST WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT NAMJOON'S TWEET yes haha

힘내자 우리. - RM

Let's have strength.

lol is that the actual translation

One single line that means so much from a leader. He already experienced this 'haters thing' long time ago; the off air show with B-Free, remember? At that time I haven't in the fandom yet.

Anyway, a hater is always accompanying someone who famous -whether if that someone is a singer, actress, actor, etc. etc. So they need to be prepared for rumors and such things.

Not liking someone is not wrong. We are totally free to liking or not liking someone. But, please, just say 'I don't like him!' and leave! Don't make someone feel down; don't bring up someone's weakness. If you don't like Hoseok, so just don't listen to BTS songs and leave. He is trying to make himself better and better, and we should respect that effort, doesn't matter if you like him or not.

Sighs. He better create a mixtape song with Namjoon, haha. Namjoon recorded 'Too Much' after that radio show incident.

Jimin was showing his love, haha~ I haven't seen his post tho, my friend said that to me this morning. I want to RT it but  after posting this post, I will sign out and go back to study!
I actually cried a little when I read Jimin was posting and Namjoon too, like, seriously, hell, why I'm being this crappy =_=
But that's friend do, right~


Well, cheer up, Hoseok-oppa! We ARMYs always by your side, no matter what!

/back to study/

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+ posted on 20141201 at 21:58
thought +
I want to experienced something like 'strong bond' relationship between me and my friends, that's why I really want to join the agency thingy; like being a trainee of a korean angency or just join 48family generation.

Actually it's already in front of my nose, but it just me who always shut them out. Shut my friend out. Because I will always be forgotten. Because we're too different, plus, we don't have the same goal.
That's why. If you know what I mean.

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+ posted on 20141112 at 18:35
Hell o +
I'm stressed out, seriously. I have too much work to do and the fact that my phone was missing isn't helping much. I can't freshen myself up with music or reading fic anywhere. And because I basically use my phone for everything, now I lost contact with everyone which only I can reach by internet connection. Well, I still can use the laptop, but phone is much easier.

Anyway, there's no use that I have facebook account or twitter account because they aren't a social media anymore. Why, because ones I know aren't socializing with me, so that's mean those accounts are useless for me, right? Should I deactivate my accounts?

Well, how are you? I'm dying to know because I have nothing to do and, yes, I'm bored. Not responding to my status when you're online is, somehow, quite sad. I wonder if I have friends at all because nobody ask for my information. I wonder if you all are actually questioned my absence.

So, the one who actually asking for my appearance is one of my classmate, because I always respond her on my class chat group whenever I'm online.

I'm okay, tho.

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+ posted on 20141028 at 20:36