chasing the death ☼
i am a bit nasty and my posts are all emo ☂ ☂
Jungkook is lost. On one very late night he finds himself
awake, starring at the ceiling with wide eyes open, fighting back the urge to
cry. He sighs in discomfort, can’t help feeling the battle of his mind and his
heart draining his energy down. Jungkook has known that this matters are taking
up his mind and energy, but he can’t help it. He can’t restrain himself to not
fall in love once again.
Taehyung is life. He is sunshine, he is everything. Every
time he is around, his surroundings seems like brighten up a bit. He makes
everyone laughs with his jokes. He makes the leaves dance with his movement.
Taehyung does a lot of thing to perks up the world. A little bit more to makes
Jungkook’s world alive.
They are friends in uni, they just have met each other for a
few months, but Jungkook adores him so much. There is something in Taehyung’s
laugh that makes him charming in every way possible. When Jungkook responses to
the jokes, he does realise that there is a love in his every words,
unintentionally.
But Jungkook knows that he can’t do that. He can’t loves
him, like he can’t loves his old friend back in secondary school. Of course it
will be an unrequited love, and Jungkook doesn’t know if he can handle that
once again. He is a friend, but Jungkook can’t see him like the way it used to
be. Something is mixed up in there, and it is love. And no matter Jungkook
wishes for himself to stop, he can’t help but falling in love again, with the
same pain all over his heart.
It is kind of bitter sweet; knowing that Taehyung himself is
in Jungkook circle of friend. It will be much much easier, Jungkook thinks, if
Taehyung is merely just a classmates. Not in a very close circle of friends or
something. But, then, Jungkook whines
in his mind, it is Taehyung’s personality that he loves. Jungkook loves the way
Taehyung explains something, he loves the way Taehyung make weird gestures, he
loves the way Taehyung be. If they are not close, maybe Jungkook will not falls
in love with him.
“I am glad to meet you,” Taehyung says when they walks down
the library’s stairs. “Because I don’t know how I would be if I didn’t!”
Jungkook just laughs in advance, he is telling the same
thing casually. But deep down in his heart, he knows that he takes that
statement far too seriously. He knows that it is not like what Jungkook thinks,
but, once again, Jungkook can’t help it. It hurts a lot, but Jungkook keeps
quiet. He can’t share this kind of thing with his friends, or else his friends
will look at him differently. Like what he used to do before, he will just keep
silent until whenever.
But keeping a secret, a big secret, is difficult. Sometimes
Jungkook will wonders in fear; is he holding the elder’s hand too long? Is his
secret revealed by that single actions? Is Jungkook making too much skinship
from he intended to do? Sometimes Jungkook imagines that Jimin looks at him
suspiciously when they walk together. Now Taehyung and Jungkook are
inseparable, they will say. And Jungkook will both glad and sad when his friend
says that.
“Hey, Kookie, do you know why Taehyung is absent today?”
Hoseok asks.
“Huh? I don’t know. Why would I know?” Jungkook answers. “He
doesn’t tell me, though.”
Hoseok shrugs. “Maybe he tells you something he didn’t tell
us. I don’t know. See you later, then.”
When Jungkook watches Hoseok walks away, his heart is
beating fast. Is that mean he spends his time too much with Taehyung? Are they
now a very very close friend? Is Hoseok hyung implying something? Is Jungkook’s
secret being known?
It is stressful, knowing that Jungkook still had four years
of being together with Taehyung.
Sometimes Jungkook can’t help to showers Taehyung with
affectionate, even though it is not explicitly. Jungkook remembers things well
if it’s linking with Taehyung’s habit. Or just simple things like reminds the
older to do the homework, or sharing the last piece of biscuit together.
Jungkook often thinks about his way to shows his love to the others. He is not
the type to clings like Hoseok hyung, or harasses them with love like Yoongi
hyung. His friend ever tells him that he will loves someone like an old married
couple. No need to show it to everyone, but deep in their heart they know that
they love each other, and nothing is needed more.
And tonight, Jungkook bundles himself on his bed, tangles
with his blanket with earphones on, blocking his roommate’s annoying laughs. He
feels miserable. He haven’t find the solution for this problem yet.
Does this mean Jungkook needs to kill his heart to stop
loving someone inappropriately? He doesn’t know, he doesn’t know. All Jungkook
can do now is hide his feelings as long as he can, while trying to erases the
fond feelings towards the older. Taehyung must not know, or else he will avoids
him. For the sake of his new images in uni, Jungkook must maintain his new circle
of friend. He doesn’t want to come back to his old self. He can only hopes that his feeling will fades slowly.
Jungkook must not cry over this. Jungkook can
handle these, he had experienced it before, and so he can do it once again,
okay?
Labels: BTS, english, Short Story, Story
+ posted on 20161024 at 14:19
So.
My friend suddenly brought up BTS's HYYH theories and she asked me to write it, so, yeah.
Sachi, you lil shit, I still can't find the post you said before!
Actually this is not a theory. I mean, this is not the theory for the whole storyline of HYYH concept. This is about the origin of HYYH concept.
A lot of ARMYs said that Big Hit planned this concept since long time ago, some ARMYs even thought it was from No More Dream era. They found a lot of evidence, which is I can't legit post here because it's all around twitter. If you actually follow their activity through twitter, and you chat with another ARMYs around the world, I swear you must have heard about this.
In short, we assumed that Big Hit really planned this HYYH concept since Bangtan's debut.
But why?
Well, just five hours ago, my friend (who is a huge fan of Vocaloid) brought up a screen shot of Vocaloid SeeU performing live in MNET. She pointed out about Namjoon's name in the producer section of the song. It's GLAM's I Like That, and we casually chatted about GLAM disbandment and how it's affecting SeeU since Dahee is SeeU's voice bank.
Anyway, SeeU is the first Korean Languaged Vocaloid. You can search it up in Google :)
And then, she said she read my previous theory about HYYH concept (you can read it here). And she said that actually, it's SeeU's concept.
Confused? Okay.
Every vocaloid character have its concept. For example, Hatsune Miku's is 'The first sound from future' means that Miku is the first one to make changes on music industry's future. I mean, she's only a hologram that can sings, and she can gain a lot of fans by that. It's the future music, she is from the future.
You get it?
Back to SeeU,
My previous theory roughly said that the main idea of the whole HYYH concept is actually simple. It's according to us how we interpret the messages they put in there. I've read a lot of theories in tumblr and/or twitter, and every single post there have the same point: growing up.
SeeU's original concept is "Vocaloid that can create anything you want". It's kind of similar with the whole HYYH concept according to me.
SeeU can create everything, it's up to you what you want to create.
We (BTS) leave messages through this video to your youth, it's up to you how you take that in.
The only legit proof of this right now is from her first song in production: I=Fantasy.
Wait,
I know this is not enough for me to make a theory about this but then my friend said that she legit read this on a forum years ago. She strongly said that she did remember about it, about the concept of SeeU on her very first launching.
I'm still doing the reasearch to Google and a lot of Vocaloid forums to find the article she read. I hope I can find it very soon and linked the thread here.
Let's assume that the thread (about SeeU's concept) is exist, because on some point it is really make sense (with the whole thing about 'Big Hit planned HYYH concept since years ago'.
Back to SeeU,
I=Fantasy was created by Hitman Bang, the father of our lovely boys. He made the lyric.
It's seen on the lyric:
I'm a dream, a dream, I'm a dream
I=Fantasy Fantasy
I'm an open door, a door, put anything through me
Have fun with me, let me take care of you
I'm, I=Fantasy
The bold line clearly says that SeeU is a dream, SeeU is a fantasy, so it's possible for her to create anything.
And how is this connected to BTS' HYYH?
Well, as we know, Big Hit's girl group, GLAM, was disbanded after Dahee's scandal. And Dahee is SeeU's voice bank. It's simply mean that Dahee is SeeU's voice actress. Since Dahee is jailed, SeeU is now also deactivated and not sold anymore. Her website is also being taken down.
And with that, SeeU is done.
SeeU's first appearance is on 2011.
GLAM debuted in 2012.
BTS debuted in 2013.
Since SeeU is no more promising, and GLAM is too, why not giving this concept to our rookie, BTS?
This explained how Big Hit is already planned this since BTS's No More Dream era.
How if Big Hit give this concept to BTS with some changes? What if Big Hit creative team bring up this concept when Namjoon say they want to make a song about youth's shits?
Bam.
Or maybe the whole HYYH thing is not originally from Namjoon and the rest of the gang. Maybe someone in Big Hit already planned Bangtan's album line up, like the transition of School Luv Affair trilogy to Dark and Wild to HYYH.
It's all planned, I believe that. I think they didn't just sit down and casually said "Hey, what's for our next comeback?"
Actually, SeeU's concept is not that dark.
SeeU's first official debut song is titled RUN. And if you search it up on Google, the lyric is the total opposite of BTS's RUN.
By dark I mean we see a lot of suicidal thought in those M/Vs, right?
I think when they (Big Hit creative team - or whatever it called) planned BTS's album line up, they thought of SeeU's concept but then it didn't quite fit with Bangtan's hip hop theme. Plus, Namjoon and the rest said that they want to make something about youth, so, why not darkening the concept a bit?
In short, what am I trying to say here is,
This HYYH concept is legit created from long time ago, with a lot of thinking and editing. I just want to confirm it, lol, since nobody talks about this. Well, as long as I know. Everyone simply talk about 'oh my, they already planned this since God know when' but they didn't ask why or how.
But then, HYYH's general idea is great. Very great. Like what I said, the main storyline itself is a simple one. Maybe a great idea in general. But the general idea itself is the problem. It can creates an ENDLESS storyline, if we want to take a moment and seriously think about it.
But it's about one thing for sure. It's about youth, and how are we dealing with shits in our youth life.
:)
Tell me what you think! And feel free to correct me if I wrong!
also posted on my tumblr here
My friend suddenly brought up BTS's HYYH theories and she asked me to write it, so, yeah.
Sachi, you lil shit, I still can't find the post you said before!
Actually this is not a theory. I mean, this is not the theory for the whole storyline of HYYH concept. This is about the origin of HYYH concept.
A lot of ARMYs said that Big Hit planned this concept since long time ago, some ARMYs even thought it was from No More Dream era. They found a lot of evidence, which is I can't legit post here because it's all around twitter. If you actually follow their activity through twitter, and you chat with another ARMYs around the world, I swear you must have heard about this.
In short, we assumed that Big Hit really planned this HYYH concept since Bangtan's debut.
But why?
Well, just five hours ago, my friend (who is a huge fan of Vocaloid) brought up a screen shot of Vocaloid SeeU performing live in MNET. She pointed out about Namjoon's name in the producer section of the song. It's GLAM's I Like That, and we casually chatted about GLAM disbandment and how it's affecting SeeU since Dahee is SeeU's voice bank.
Anyway, SeeU is the first Korean Languaged Vocaloid. You can search it up in Google :)
And then, she said she read my previous theory about HYYH concept (you can read it here). And she said that actually, it's SeeU's concept.
Confused? Okay.
Every vocaloid character have its concept. For example, Hatsune Miku's is 'The first sound from future' means that Miku is the first one to make changes on music industry's future. I mean, she's only a hologram that can sings, and she can gain a lot of fans by that. It's the future music, she is from the future.
You get it?
Back to SeeU,
My previous theory roughly said that the main idea of the whole HYYH concept is actually simple. It's according to us how we interpret the messages they put in there. I've read a lot of theories in tumblr and/or twitter, and every single post there have the same point: growing up.
SeeU's original concept is "Vocaloid that can create anything you want". It's kind of similar with the whole HYYH concept according to me.
SeeU can create everything, it's up to you what you want to create.
We (BTS) leave messages through this video to your youth, it's up to you how you take that in.
The only legit proof of this right now is from her first song in production: I=Fantasy.
Wait,
I know this is not enough for me to make a theory about this but then my friend said that she legit read this on a forum years ago. She strongly said that she did remember about it, about the concept of SeeU on her very first launching.
I'm still doing the reasearch to Google and a lot of Vocaloid forums to find the article she read. I hope I can find it very soon and linked the thread here.
Let's assume that the thread (about SeeU's concept) is exist, because on some point it is really make sense (with the whole thing about 'Big Hit planned HYYH concept since years ago'.
Back to SeeU,
I=Fantasy was created by Hitman Bang, the father of our lovely boys. He made the lyric.
It's seen on the lyric:
I'm a dream, a dream, I'm a dream
I=Fantasy Fantasy
I'm an open door, a door, put anything through me
Have fun with me, let me take care of you
I'm, I=Fantasy
The bold line clearly says that SeeU is a dream, SeeU is a fantasy, so it's possible for her to create anything.
And how is this connected to BTS' HYYH?
Well, as we know, Big Hit's girl group, GLAM, was disbanded after Dahee's scandal. And Dahee is SeeU's voice bank. It's simply mean that Dahee is SeeU's voice actress. Since Dahee is jailed, SeeU is now also deactivated and not sold anymore. Her website is also being taken down.
And with that, SeeU is done.
SeeU's first appearance is on 2011.
GLAM debuted in 2012.
BTS debuted in 2013.
Since SeeU is no more promising, and GLAM is too, why not giving this concept to our rookie, BTS?
This explained how Big Hit is already planned this since BTS's No More Dream era.
How if Big Hit give this concept to BTS with some changes? What if Big Hit creative team bring up this concept when Namjoon say they want to make a song about youth's shits?
Bam.
Or maybe the whole HYYH thing is not originally from Namjoon and the rest of the gang. Maybe someone in Big Hit already planned Bangtan's album line up, like the transition of School Luv Affair trilogy to Dark and Wild to HYYH.
It's all planned, I believe that. I think they didn't just sit down and casually said "Hey, what's for our next comeback?"
Actually, SeeU's concept is not that dark.
SeeU's first official debut song is titled RUN. And if you search it up on Google, the lyric is the total opposite of BTS's RUN.
By dark I mean we see a lot of suicidal thought in those M/Vs, right?
I think when they (Big Hit creative team - or whatever it called) planned BTS's album line up, they thought of SeeU's concept but then it didn't quite fit with Bangtan's hip hop theme. Plus, Namjoon and the rest said that they want to make something about youth, so, why not darkening the concept a bit?
In short, what am I trying to say here is,
This HYYH concept is legit created from long time ago, with a lot of thinking and editing. I just want to confirm it, lol, since nobody talks about this. Well, as long as I know. Everyone simply talk about 'oh my, they already planned this since God know when' but they didn't ask why or how.
But then, HYYH's general idea is great. Very great. Like what I said, the main storyline itself is a simple one. Maybe a great idea in general. But the general idea itself is the problem. It can creates an ENDLESS storyline, if we want to take a moment and seriously think about it.
But it's about one thing for sure. It's about youth, and how are we dealing with shits in our youth life.
:)
Tell me what you think! And feel free to correct me if I wrong!
also posted on my tumblr here
+ posted on 20160613 at 23:23
Ayo SUGA
3년 전 여기 첨 왔던 때 기억해
왠지 형이랑 나랑 막
치고박고 했던 때
벽지도 화장실도
베란다도 다 파란 집
그 때 난 여기가 막 되게
넓은 집인 줄 알았지
But 내 야망이 너무 커졌어
그리 넓어 보이던 새 집도
이제는 너무 좁아졌어
17평 아홉 연습생 코찔찔이 시절
엊그제 같은데 그래
우리도 꽤 많이 컸어
좋은 건 언제나 다
남들의 몫이었고
불투명한 미래 걱정에
항상 목 쉬었고
연말 시상식
선배 가수들 보며 목 메였고
했던 꾸질한 기억
잊진 말고 딱 넣어두자고
우리의 냄새가 나 여기선
이 향기 잊지 말자
우리가 어디 있건
울기도 웃기도 많이 했지만
모두 꽤나 아름다웠어
논현동 3층 고마웠어
3년 전 여기 첨 왔던 때 기억해
왠지 형이랑 나랑 막
치고박고 했던 때
벽지도 화장실도
베란다도 다 파란 집
그 때 난 여기가 막 되게
넓은 집인 줄 알았지
But 내 야망이 너무 커졌어
그리 넓어 보이던 새 집도
이제는 너무 좁아졌어
17평 아홉 연습생 코찔찔이 시절
엊그제 같은데 그래
우리도 꽤 많이 컸어
좋은 건 언제나 다
남들의 몫이었고
불투명한 미래 걱정에
항상 목 쉬었고
연말 시상식
선배 가수들 보며 목 메였고
했던 꾸질한 기억
잊진 말고 딱 넣어두자고
우리의 냄새가 나 여기선
이 향기 잊지 말자
우리가 어디 있건
울기도 웃기도 많이 했지만
모두 꽤나 아름다웠어
논현동 3층 고마웠어
이사 가자
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
텅 빈 방에서
마지막 짐을 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
마지막 짐을 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
3년의 삶 참 짧고도 길었지
많은 일들이 있고
많은 추억의 기억이
막 떠오르곤 해
떠날 때가 되니까
사용의 흔적들 like
통장내역 크레딧카드
좁은 평수만큼
더 뭉친 점도 있었고
Fight right here
치고 받기도 몇번
그래서인지 고운 정 미운 정
쌓이고 쌓였어
먼지 마냥 이젠 치워지겠지
처음보단 짐도 늘고
처음보단 내 스스로
가진 것도 늘었어
이젠 자부심을 딱 들고
더 큰 세상 큰 꿈을 나 바라보겠어
새 출발 새 시작
어떤 식으로 또 꾸밀 지
기대되는 시간
짐 날라 위치 잡아 먼지 닦아
끝나고서는 수고의
짜장면 하나 that’s right
많은 일들이 있고
많은 추억의 기억이
막 떠오르곤 해
떠날 때가 되니까
사용의 흔적들 like
통장내역 크레딧카드
좁은 평수만큼
더 뭉친 점도 있었고
Fight right here
치고 받기도 몇번
그래서인지 고운 정 미운 정
쌓이고 쌓였어
먼지 마냥 이젠 치워지겠지
처음보단 짐도 늘고
처음보단 내 스스로
가진 것도 늘었어
이젠 자부심을 딱 들고
더 큰 세상 큰 꿈을 나 바라보겠어
새 출발 새 시작
어떤 식으로 또 꾸밀 지
기대되는 시간
짐 날라 위치 잡아 먼지 닦아
끝나고서는 수고의
짜장면 하나 that’s right
이사 가자
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
텅 빈 방에서
마지막 짐을 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
마지막 짐을 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
난생 처음 엄마의 뱃속에서
나의 첫 이사 날을 세곤 했어
희미한 기억 나의 이사의 대가는
엄마 심장의 기계와
광활한 흉터였어
2010년 그 해 겨울 대구에서
철없던 내가
이 세상의 크기를 재곤 했어
상업적이란 집으로
이사간 대가는
욕 바가지 돈따라기 라며
날 향한 손가락질
이처럼 이사는 내게
참 많은 걸 남겼지
그게 좋던 싫던
내 삶 속에서 많은 걸 바꿨지
내 삶은 월세 나도 매달려 알어
내 자존심은 보증금 다 건 채
하루를 살어 uh
그래서 다시 이사 가려고 해
아이돌에서 한 단계 위로
꿈이 잡히려 해
이번 이사의 손 없는 날은 언제일까
빠른 시일이면 좋겠다
나의 첫 이사 날을 세곤 했어
희미한 기억 나의 이사의 대가는
엄마 심장의 기계와
광활한 흉터였어
2010년 그 해 겨울 대구에서
철없던 내가
이 세상의 크기를 재곤 했어
상업적이란 집으로
이사간 대가는
욕 바가지 돈따라기 라며
날 향한 손가락질
이처럼 이사는 내게
참 많은 걸 남겼지
그게 좋던 싫던
내 삶 속에서 많은 걸 바꿨지
내 삶은 월세 나도 매달려 알어
내 자존심은 보증금 다 건 채
하루를 살어 uh
그래서 다시 이사 가려고 해
아이돌에서 한 단계 위로
꿈이 잡히려 해
이번 이사의 손 없는 날은 언제일까
빠른 시일이면 좋겠다
이사 가자
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
텅 빈 방에서
마지막 짐 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
마지막 짐 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
이사 가자
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
정들었던 이곳과는 안녕
이사 가자
이제는 더 높은 곳으로
텅 빈 방에서
마지막 짐을 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
마지막 짐을 들고 나가려다가
잠시 돌아본다
울고 웃던 시간들아
이젠 안녕
Everyone’s afraid of changes. Staying, moving on, staying, moving on… We’re repeating the same things, again and again. I guess that’s life, at its finest. Old or new, you are all massively important. What’s important is, that we still believe, and we live in the same place. So let’s move on.
English
Ayo SUGA
I remember when I first came here
The time when you (Suga) and I
Fought
The house with the blue wallpaper and the toilet
And the veranda
During that time I thought
This was a really big house
But my ambitions have became too big
The new house which looked so big
Is now too small
The 17 pyeong* with 9 trainee, those snotty nosed kid times
Seem like yesterday
We’ve grown a lot too
The good things were always
For others
With the worries of the unclear future
Our voices would become hoarse**
The annual prize giving ceremonies
We would cry while watching our senior singers
These stupid memories
Let’s not forget and put them right back in
It smells like us in this apartment
Let’s not forget this fragrance
Wherever we were
We cried and laughed a lot
But it was all beautiful
Thanks to 3rd floor in Nonhyeon-dong
I remember when I first came here
The time when you (Suga) and I
Fought
The house with the blue wallpaper and the toilet
And the veranda
During that time I thought
This was a really big house
But my ambitions have became too big
The new house which looked so big
Is now too small
The 17 pyeong* with 9 trainee, those snotty nosed kid times
Seem like yesterday
We’ve grown a lot too
The good things were always
For others
With the worries of the unclear future
Our voices would become hoarse**
The annual prize giving ceremonies
We would cry while watching our senior singers
These stupid memories
Let’s not forget and put them right back in
It smells like us in this apartment
Let’s not forget this fragrance
Wherever we were
We cried and laughed a lot
But it was all beautiful
Thanks to 3rd floor in Nonhyeon-dong
Let’s move out
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place***
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place***
In the empty room
While I was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
The times when we both cried and also laughed
Bye now
While I was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
The times when we both cried and also laughed
Bye now
The 3 years were short and long
Let’s move out
And eventful
I think of our memories
Sometimes
Now it’s time to leave
The marks of use
Account information credit cards
Because it was small
There were more fights
Fight right here
The amount of times we’ve fought
So good love and bad love
Have built up over time
Will be brushed away like dust
I have more stuff than before
I have myself
More stuff than before
Now with pride
I’m going to look at the bigger world and the bigger dream
A new start a new start
How i will decorate this
A time I look forward to
Move our luggage, take our place, wipe the dust
After we finish
Black bean noodles for our work that’s right
Let’s move out
And eventful
I think of our memories
Sometimes
Now it’s time to leave
The marks of use
Account information credit cards
Because it was small
There were more fights
Fight right here
The amount of times we’ve fought
So good love and bad love
Have built up over time
Will be brushed away like dust
I have more stuff than before
I have myself
More stuff than before
Now with pride
I’m going to look at the bigger world and the bigger dream
A new start a new start
How i will decorate this
A time I look forward to
Move our luggage, take our place, wipe the dust
After we finish
Black bean noodles for our work that’s right
Let’s move out
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place
In the empty room
While I was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
the times when we both cried and also laughed
bye now
While I was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
the times when we both cried and also laughed
bye now
When I was first alive in my mother’s womb
I counted the days until my first move
In my unclear memories the price I paid for my moving out of our house
Was a heart machine to my mother
With a gaping wide scar
In the year 2010 that winter in Daegu
The immature me
Tried to weigh up the world
Moving to a business-owned house
The price for it was
Swearing and names calling me a money follower
The fingers pointing at me
Like this moving
Left lots of things
It doesn’t matter if I liked it or not
It changed many things in my life
My life is monthly rent I depend on it I know
My pride is on my saved up money
And i live like this uh
So I want to move again
A level above idols
That dream is about to be caught
When will the day when we don’t need to do anything about moving come
I wish it could be a little quicker
I counted the days until my first move
In my unclear memories the price I paid for my moving out of our house
Was a heart machine to my mother
With a gaping wide scar
In the year 2010 that winter in Daegu
The immature me
Tried to weigh up the world
Moving to a business-owned house
The price for it was
Swearing and names calling me a money follower
The fingers pointing at me
Like this moving
Left lots of things
It doesn’t matter if I liked it or not
It changed many things in my life
My life is monthly rent I depend on it I know
My pride is on my saved up money
And i live like this uh
So I want to move again
A level above idols
That dream is about to be caught
When will the day when we don’t need to do anything about moving come
I wish it could be a little quicker
Let’s move out
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place
In the empty room
While i was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
The times when we both cried and also laughed
Bye now
While i was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
The times when we both cried and also laughed
Bye now
Let’s move out
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place
Of this place which we became friendly with
Let’s move out
To a higher place
In the empty room
While I was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
The times when we both cried and also laughed
Bye now
While I was going to take out my last piece of luggage
I look back for a second
The times when we both cried and also laughed
Bye now
T/N: * 1 pyeong = approximately 3.3m²
** Voice hoarse from crying
*** This means both literally as in going up to higher floors and also
figuratively as in they’ve debuted now and want to go higher)
** Voice hoarse from crying
*** This means both literally as in going up to higher floors and also
figuratively as in they’ve debuted now and want to go higher)
Trans cr; Sevina @ bts-trans
+ posted on 20151230 at 21:38
What I like about bangtan's In the Mood for Love both part one and part two is how they managed to attract us uniquely. First, with the complicated storyline. I believe I already wrote about the complicated storyline here .
And second, how they actually do the concept whole heartedly. I don't say that the other groups didn't do their comeback concept properly, but, ugh, after watching this dance practice video I just realized how soulful the dance is. I mean, there's an emotion involved in the dance! And the same thing happen with I Need U.
I got touched by how they make a butterfly pose in the end of the dance, like, it actually has something related with butterfly. The butterfly shadow in Prologue, Butterfly Dreams Exhibition, butterfly in Jin's photo teaser, song track no. 2 titled butterfly, and now this pose!
I don't know what happen to me but bangtan made me emotional, like, seriously, emotional. Like, who cried in the middle of the night just because Hoseok threw his pills onto fire? Who cried in the middle of the night when bangtan got their first win with I Need U? AND ALSO CRYING BECAUSE JIMIN THE CUTIEPIE IS CRYING TOO HE'S TOO HAPPY OH MY GOD I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE
-stop.
Bangtan makes me emotional these days. Really. I know, I'm overreacted, but, I just appreciated Namjoon's music that much. And by that much means I'll go crying because Taehyung stabs the actor or Jimin drowned himself.
-stop.
What I'm trying to say here is that bangtan's RUN dance practice is awesome. The moves is simple but beautiful, and (I don't want to sound too biased but, hell, I am an A.R.M.Y!) bless Song Seung Duk(?) teacher; they got the emotional feelings on that dance. Yasss.
Okay.
That's all.
And second, how they actually do the concept whole heartedly. I don't say that the other groups didn't do their comeback concept properly, but, ugh, after watching this dance practice video I just realized how soulful the dance is. I mean, there's an emotion involved in the dance! And the same thing happen with I Need U.
I got touched by how they make a butterfly pose in the end of the dance, like, it actually has something related with butterfly. The butterfly shadow in Prologue, Butterfly Dreams Exhibition, butterfly in Jin's photo teaser, song track no. 2 titled butterfly, and now this pose!
I don't know what happen to me but bangtan made me emotional, like, seriously, emotional. Like, who cried in the middle of the night just because Hoseok threw his pills onto fire? Who cried in the middle of the night when bangtan got their first win with I Need U? AND ALSO CRYING BECAUSE JIMIN THE CUTIEPIE IS CRYING TOO HE'S TOO HAPPY OH MY GOD I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE
-stop.
Bangtan makes me emotional these days. Really. I know, I'm overreacted, but, I just appreciated Namjoon's music that much. And by that much means I'll go crying because Taehyung stabs the actor or Jimin drowned himself.
-stop.
What I'm trying to say here is that bangtan's RUN dance practice is awesome. The moves is simple but beautiful, and (I don't want to sound too biased but, hell, I am an A.R.M.Y!) bless Song Seung Duk(?) teacher; they got the emotional feelings on that dance. Yasss.
Okay.
That's all.
+ posted on 20151209 at 22:35
what a writer can learn from BTS's HYYH.
Big Hit is crazy.
No, the creative producers there are crazy.
We don't know the ACTUAL storyline yet (because there's zero explanation to us from them) but they could managed a confusing storyline for I NEED U and RUN M/V, and made us (ARMYs) think a lot about the storyline.
We came up with several theories, which was all make sense, and before we could confirm who's theory is true, Big Hit came and RUINED IT ALL with RUN M/V.
Laughing out loud; this situation is laugh-able, to be honest.
Who is dead? Jin or the rest of BTS?
Who is the man who stabbed by Taehyung?
Why Jungkook punched Yoongi?
Why Jimin drowned himself? What did he read in I NEED U M/V?
Why Hoseok overdosed himself?
Why Yoongi set the fire?
Why Namjoon wrote 'you need to survive' in the mirror?
Why Taehyung jumped to the sea? Why he got a scene in the water in RUN?
Where is Jin on the polaroid picture held by Jimin in the end of M/V?
Why Big Hit deleted the last scene from Prologue?
Where is Yoongi on the polaroid picture held by Jin in the end of Prologue?
The questions above are not even half of our questions.
Some of creative ARMYs were writing theories, and those theories were not based on nothing. They actually searched the base for their theories, and their source were no jokes.
Several bed-time stories come up, a deep thought about the back song Big Hit use in the Prologue, and even a Chinese philosophy.
Well, I'm not saying that ARMYs didn't do an astonishingly and amazingly good job, but those Big Hit's creative producers are the geniuses one in the first place.
They made us THINK, and if we think more about it, there would be another theory come up, and when we try to connect it with the videos, there would be another one!
Basically, I believed, the main storyline itself is a simple one. Maybe a great idea in general. But the general idea itself is the problem. It can creates an ENDLESS storyline, if we want to take a moment and seriously think about it.
We can jump into conclusion A, because it matches the video. But we can jump into conclusion B because, for example, the relationship between Namjoon and Taehyung is unknown. And conclusion C is make sense as well, because the whole videos (In The Mood For Love, I NEED U, Prologue, Nevermind, and RUN) is, probably, connected. And if we want to connect the photo teasers as well, we might find conclusion D.
How can a person come up with such a genius idea? I don't know.
I did read the theories, and I was confused as hell when they released RUN M/V.
So, like the title said, what can a writer learn from this?
The idea. The plot. The confusing storyline. The feromones that can make us interested and think about it all day.
Let's not talk about who's dead, lol. I don't know either. I will stick with the theory that said Jin was the one who still alive, because I don't feel right with Jin's death. Something is missing, but I don't know what.
Actually, the one that makes us interested is the actors, lol. We love Bangtan, we could do everything for them, so that's why we could came out with amazing theories.
The point is, how we create something that can attract many people. In BTS' case, well, they are idols, so it won't be difficult.
But for writers, we need to think about a unique story, a different one, so readers will interested and they will buy our book. This HYYH storyline is a great one of we want to make a serial novel.
Then how we create a unique story like that?
By reading. Read everything. Don't just read the genre you like. Just like in this case; who could tell that the actual plot is taken from Chinese philosophy or by Peter Pan's Neverland?
Well, HYYH is a good thing to be picked as an example.
So, this is the end of the post. I hope ppl don't judge my grammar, lol, I'm still learning.
Tell me what you think!
also posted to my tumblr here
Big Hit is crazy.
No, the creative producers there are crazy.
We don't know the ACTUAL storyline yet (because there's zero explanation to us from them) but they could managed a confusing storyline for I NEED U and RUN M/V, and made us (ARMYs) think a lot about the storyline.
We came up with several theories, which was all make sense, and before we could confirm who's theory is true, Big Hit came and RUINED IT ALL with RUN M/V.
Laughing out loud; this situation is laugh-able, to be honest.
Who is dead? Jin or the rest of BTS?
Who is the man who stabbed by Taehyung?
Why Jungkook punched Yoongi?
Why Jimin drowned himself? What did he read in I NEED U M/V?
Why Hoseok overdosed himself?
Why Yoongi set the fire?
Why Namjoon wrote 'you need to survive' in the mirror?
Why Taehyung jumped to the sea? Why he got a scene in the water in RUN?
Where is Jin on the polaroid picture held by Jimin in the end of M/V?
Why Big Hit deleted the last scene from Prologue?
Where is Yoongi on the polaroid picture held by Jin in the end of Prologue?
The questions above are not even half of our questions.
Some of creative ARMYs were writing theories, and those theories were not based on nothing. They actually searched the base for their theories, and their source were no jokes.
Several bed-time stories come up, a deep thought about the back song Big Hit use in the Prologue, and even a Chinese philosophy.
Well, I'm not saying that ARMYs didn't do an astonishingly and amazingly good job, but those Big Hit's creative producers are the geniuses one in the first place.
They made us THINK, and if we think more about it, there would be another theory come up, and when we try to connect it with the videos, there would be another one!
Basically, I believed, the main storyline itself is a simple one. Maybe a great idea in general. But the general idea itself is the problem. It can creates an ENDLESS storyline, if we want to take a moment and seriously think about it.
We can jump into conclusion A, because it matches the video. But we can jump into conclusion B because, for example, the relationship between Namjoon and Taehyung is unknown. And conclusion C is make sense as well, because the whole videos (In The Mood For Love, I NEED U, Prologue, Nevermind, and RUN) is, probably, connected. And if we want to connect the photo teasers as well, we might find conclusion D.
How can a person come up with such a genius idea? I don't know.
I did read the theories, and I was confused as hell when they released RUN M/V.
So, like the title said, what can a writer learn from this?
The idea. The plot. The confusing storyline. The feromones that can make us interested and think about it all day.
Let's not talk about who's dead, lol. I don't know either. I will stick with the theory that said Jin was the one who still alive, because I don't feel right with Jin's death. Something is missing, but I don't know what.
Actually, the one that makes us interested is the actors, lol. We love Bangtan, we could do everything for them, so that's why we could came out with amazing theories.
The point is, how we create something that can attract many people. In BTS' case, well, they are idols, so it won't be difficult.
But for writers, we need to think about a unique story, a different one, so readers will interested and they will buy our book. This HYYH storyline is a great one of we want to make a serial novel.
Then how we create a unique story like that?
By reading. Read everything. Don't just read the genre you like. Just like in this case; who could tell that the actual plot is taken from Chinese philosophy or by Peter Pan's Neverland?
Well, HYYH is a good thing to be picked as an example.
So, this is the end of the post. I hope ppl don't judge my grammar, lol, I'm still learning.
Tell me what you think!
also posted to my tumblr here
+ posted on 20151130 at 13:58
Hello.
I was just updating my videos - a bunch of BTS update videos and SHINee's View live stages, I need to keep in touch with them no matter what. And I just watched BTS' update vids, the VHope collaboration clip and their newest Japan M/V.
TAEHYUNG'S VOICE IS IMPROVING OH MY GOD I'M SO PROUD
Yes, if you compare his voice on the early debut era (Typical Trainee's Christmas for example) his voice wasn't steady yet, and this newest one, is very smooth and I know he's been practicing hard.
And Hoseok's rap too!!! His rap is getting better!!! Maybe on the next three years I can't easily follow his raps again. His part on Killer is the only part that I can sing immediately, hahahah.
AND TALK ABOUT JAPANESE M/V
Jungkook is getting some fat, I see, and is he going taller? Well, the amount of Yoongi's scene in the M/V is just too little uhh that's we got when Big Hit decided to make Jungkook as the main character.
BUT THAT NAMJIN SCENE THO yaaaaasssssss you don't know how I paused the M/V and going crazy in front of my screen and I was like
ahjdsladiwusjhusinuf wv9euthwij sff9jqkfqkcaocnnp gw8ghfjq qqqqaaaahdhdjfhvns; NAMJIN OH MY GODNESS jqijwoidiso o
Bless Big Hit.
I accidentally peel off my keyboard stickers when I typed that lol.
And that scene when Taehyung naturally smashed himself to Jungkook's lap.
My life is done. I can die in happiness.
okay bye.
I was just updating my videos - a bunch of BTS update videos and SHINee's View live stages, I need to keep in touch with them no matter what. And I just watched BTS' update vids, the VHope collaboration clip and their newest Japan M/V.
TAEHYUNG'S VOICE IS IMPROVING OH MY GOD I'M SO PROUD
Yes, if you compare his voice on the early debut era (Typical Trainee's Christmas for example) his voice wasn't steady yet, and this newest one, is very smooth and I know he's been practicing hard.
And Hoseok's rap too!!! His rap is getting better!!! Maybe on the next three years I can't easily follow his raps again. His part on Killer is the only part that I can sing immediately, hahahah.
AND TALK ABOUT JAPANESE M/V
Jungkook is getting some fat, I see, and is he going taller? Well, the amount of Yoongi's scene in the M/V is just too little uhh that's we got when Big Hit decided to make Jungkook as the main character.
BUT THAT NAMJIN SCENE THO yaaaaasssssss you don't know how I paused the M/V and going crazy in front of my screen and I was like
ahjdsladiwusjhusinuf wv9euthwij sff9jqkfqkcaocnnp gw8ghfjq qqqqaaaahdhdjfhvns; NAMJIN OH MY GODNESS jqijwoidiso o
Bless Big Hit.
I accidentally peel off my keyboard stickers when I typed that lol.
And that scene when Taehyung naturally smashed himself to Jungkook's lap.
My life is done. I can die in happiness.
okay bye.
Labels: BTS
+ posted on 20150605 at 20:06
Hello. This is May and April post, because I didn't post anything on April, sorry.
Current mood is: confused.
Stanning BTS is really not healthy. Their newest music video is making me crying for these past week; like, seriously crying, with tears running on the cheeks and all those fanfiction-ish thing.
I'm proudly stating that I didn't cry when I watched Miracle in Cell No. 7 two years ago, but I cry because of Hoseok's acting on I Need U. Really, they know what are they doing.
Hoseok's part in the music video, somehow, seems like very realistic. I'm not saying that he's into drugs too in the reality. The fact that Hoseok is the vitamin of the group and we rarely see him down really hits me. He is always positive and full of energy, eventhough we can see that he's tired and sleepy.
Watching Hoseok's acting on I Need U music video; it appears as Hoseok's other side to me. I mean, it's very understandable if he really drinks those drugs...
No, please, no. I DON'T WANT THAT. I SWEAR.
When the first MV was out, Hoseok's part was the one that made me crying lol I used four tissue papers at that time. The part when he walked on the bridge, and gave us that blank expression -UGH, I cried the most at that part. It's kinda like he was showing his another side to us. It's like we are looking at Hoseok in this MV, it's not J-Hope but it's Hoseok.
Who knows that actually he is experiencing something not nice when the camera is off, and when the camera is on, he's turning into that happy happy J-Hope that always ARMY know.
Idol is a mask, and we, the fans, will never know what's behind the mask unless they open it by themselves.
AND WHEN THE ORIGINAL MV IS OUT oh my god.
When Hoseok swallowed the pills and when he fell down on the road, oh my god, I couldn't even breathe when I saw the MV for the first time.
It's still making me cry until now, tho.
Taehyung's part, somehow, is very cool. He stabbed the man, and he's covered in blood, yeah, man, that's cool.
After his incident with netizen a few days ago, watching him on the MV again, surprisingly, also made me cry too.
FYI, I do watch the music video for idk how many times, I lost count already.
When Taehyung stabbed the man, the reality that hits me is "What if he ever wanted to do some violent things to unstressed himself?"
I don't say that stabbing man is good for refresh you up, but, well, I don't know how is that idea appearing in my head.
I have a theory on this actually, haha.
In most of their music videos, they always broke things; No More Dream, N.O, Boy In Luv, Danger, and now I Need U. I think they also using that scene to released their stress.
And when I rewatched Taehyung's part in I Need U, I couldn't help thinking that "This is Taehyung, not V."
Same with Hoseok's case, ugh.
At this rate, I can cry with just thinking about Hoseok's alter ego and my theories above...
I'm wasting too many tissue papers just for him. They turned me into a crybaby, really.
Anyway, SHINee's comeback with View this month. I can't buy their first press album, by the way, because I bought BTS's Hwayangyeonwha AHAHAH white version.
THEIR TEASER IS SUCH A TEASE -girls' legs on the first teaser, and a girl on their second photo teaser ohmygod. Please don't use sexy concept on them, please. Just use the girl to walk by (like Jessica did on Sherlock, or like their Japan MVs) PLEASE DON'T LET THEM TOUCH THE GIRL UGH.
Current condition is good. I did the chemist test well, and the exam is coming this month. I have a debate competition on this Sunday, I hope I can ditch this competition, let me sick please please so I can't attend the competition.
Well, this is the end of this month's post!
Goodbye.
Current mood is: confused.
Stanning BTS is really not healthy. Their newest music video is making me crying for these past week; like, seriously crying, with tears running on the cheeks and all those fanfiction-ish thing.
I'm proudly stating that I didn't cry when I watched Miracle in Cell No. 7 two years ago, but I cry because of Hoseok's acting on I Need U. Really, they know what are they doing.
Hoseok's part in the music video, somehow, seems like very realistic. I'm not saying that he's into drugs too in the reality. The fact that Hoseok is the vitamin of the group and we rarely see him down really hits me. He is always positive and full of energy, eventhough we can see that he's tired and sleepy.
Watching Hoseok's acting on I Need U music video; it appears as Hoseok's other side to me. I mean, it's very understandable if he really drinks those drugs...
No, please, no. I DON'T WANT THAT. I SWEAR.
When the first MV was out, Hoseok's part was the one that made me crying lol I used four tissue papers at that time. The part when he walked on the bridge, and gave us that blank expression -UGH, I cried the most at that part. It's kinda like he was showing his another side to us. It's like we are looking at Hoseok in this MV, it's not J-Hope but it's Hoseok.
Who knows that actually he is experiencing something not nice when the camera is off, and when the camera is on, he's turning into that happy happy J-Hope that always ARMY know.
Idol is a mask, and we, the fans, will never know what's behind the mask unless they open it by themselves.
AND WHEN THE ORIGINAL MV IS OUT oh my god.
When Hoseok swallowed the pills and when he fell down on the road, oh my god, I couldn't even breathe when I saw the MV for the first time.
It's still making me cry until now, tho.
Taehyung's part, somehow, is very cool. He stabbed the man, and he's covered in blood, yeah, man, that's cool.
After his incident with netizen a few days ago, watching him on the MV again, surprisingly, also made me cry too.
FYI, I do watch the music video for idk how many times, I lost count already.
When Taehyung stabbed the man, the reality that hits me is "What if he ever wanted to do some violent things to unstressed himself?"
I don't say that stabbing man is good for refresh you up, but, well, I don't know how is that idea appearing in my head.
I have a theory on this actually, haha.
In most of their music videos, they always broke things; No More Dream, N.O, Boy In Luv, Danger, and now I Need U. I think they also using that scene to released their stress.
And when I rewatched Taehyung's part in I Need U, I couldn't help thinking that "This is Taehyung, not V."
Same with Hoseok's case, ugh.
At this rate, I can cry with just thinking about Hoseok's alter ego and my theories above...
I'm wasting too many tissue papers just for him. They turned me into a crybaby, really.
Anyway, SHINee's comeback with View this month. I can't buy their first press album, by the way, because I bought BTS's Hwayangyeonwha AHAHAH white version.
THEIR TEASER IS SUCH A TEASE -girls' legs on the first teaser, and a girl on their second photo teaser ohmygod. Please don't use sexy concept on them, please. Just use the girl to walk by (like Jessica did on Sherlock, or like their Japan MVs) PLEASE DON'T LET THEM TOUCH THE GIRL UGH.
Current condition is good. I did the chemist test well, and the exam is coming this month. I have a debate competition on this Sunday, I hope I can ditch this competition, let me sick please please so I can't attend the competition.
Well, this is the end of this month's post!
Goodbye.
+ posted on 20150515 at 21:06
Well, I don't believe Allkpop that much since they always bring up something like silly gossips around our bias (Condom on Jin's post for example) but this one is helping me sort everything up, so, yeah.
http://www.allkpop.com/article/2014/11/bts-fans-take-up-arms-to-show-their-love-for-j-hope
Well, I was online when ARMYs brought the hash tag up. I just knew that someone was bashing Hoseok and the entire fandom was defending him as usual. I even created one tweet about him too, with the hash tag on and my fav picture of him (the one when he looks SO PRETTY I JUST CAN'T omo omo okay staph). But I don't know that the problem is much bigger than that.
well, according to allkpop... you can read it by yourself by the way.
I JUST WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT NAMJOON'S TWEET yes haha
lol is that the actual translation
One single line that means so much from a leader. He already experienced this 'haters thing' long time ago; the off air show with B-Free, remember? At that time I haven't in the fandom yet.
Anyway, a hater is always accompanying someone who famous -whether if that someone is a singer, actress, actor, etc. etc. So they need to be prepared for rumors and such things.
Not liking someone is not wrong. We are totally free to liking or not liking someone. But, please, just say 'I don't like him!' and leave! Don't make someone feel down; don't bring up someone's weakness. If you don't like Hoseok, so just don't listen to BTS songs and leave. He is trying to make himself better and better, and we should respect that effort, doesn't matter if you like him or not.
Sighs. He better create a mixtape song with Namjoon, haha. Namjoon recorded 'Too Much' after that radio show incident.
Jimin was showing his love, haha~ I haven't seen his post tho, my friend said that to me this morning. I want to RT it but after posting this post, I will sign out and go back to study!
I actually cried a little when I read Jimin was posting and Namjoon too, like, seriously, hell, why I'm being this crappy =_=
But that's friend do, right~
Well, cheer up, Hoseok-oppa! We ARMYs always by your side, no matter what!
/back to study/
http://www.allkpop.com/article/2014/11/bts-fans-take-up-arms-to-show-their-love-for-j-hope
Well, I was online when ARMYs brought the hash tag up. I just knew that someone was bashing Hoseok and the entire fandom was defending him as usual. I even created one tweet about him too, with the hash tag on and my fav picture of him (the one when he looks SO PRETTY I JUST CAN'T omo omo okay staph). But I don't know that the problem is much bigger than that.
well, according to allkpop... you can read it by yourself by the way.
I JUST WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT NAMJOON'S TWEET yes haha
힘내자 우리. - RM
Let's have strength.
lol is that the actual translation
One single line that means so much from a leader. He already experienced this 'haters thing' long time ago; the off air show with B-Free, remember? At that time I haven't in the fandom yet.
Anyway, a hater is always accompanying someone who famous -whether if that someone is a singer, actress, actor, etc. etc. So they need to be prepared for rumors and such things.
Not liking someone is not wrong. We are totally free to liking or not liking someone. But, please, just say 'I don't like him!' and leave! Don't make someone feel down; don't bring up someone's weakness. If you don't like Hoseok, so just don't listen to BTS songs and leave. He is trying to make himself better and better, and we should respect that effort, doesn't matter if you like him or not.
Sighs. He better create a mixtape song with Namjoon, haha. Namjoon recorded 'Too Much' after that radio show incident.
Jimin was showing his love, haha~ I haven't seen his post tho, my friend said that to me this morning. I want to RT it but after posting this post, I will sign out and go back to study!
I actually cried a little when I read Jimin was posting and Namjoon too, like, seriously, hell, why I'm being this crappy =_=
But that's friend do, right~
Well, cheer up, Hoseok-oppa! We ARMYs always by your side, no matter what!
/back to study/
+ posted on 20141201 at 21:58
Hello. I was re-reading gimteahyung's fics, and re-realized that her works were amazing. She's 18, not surprising according to her very beautifully written fic.
The point that makes me happy is, I know her. Doesn't mean that I have actually meet her, but she is the most frequent follower that actually talk to me. She mentioned me today after I tweeted something about 'fuck-off-my-friend-idc-anymore'. She came up with 'hey, what's wrong?' even with emoticons on. I didn't expect anyone to respond to my tweets tho, because, hell, who cares to me. But I was extremely happy atm. It feels nice when someone actually cares to you.
She is planning to buy BTS' Season's Greeting this year. Hopefully she can managed to save some money for that, haha. She bought that CeCi magazine (which is the thing I really want too) and she told me that the bracelet (or ring?) was pretty.
I hope we can meet someday, maybe on BTS' concert? She is from Australia, well, idk how we will accidentally meet up.
And, oh, I watched the newest Bangtan Bomb just now. VMin friendship is just too cute to resist.
The point that makes me happy is, I know her. Doesn't mean that I have actually meet her, but she is the most frequent follower that actually talk to me. She mentioned me today after I tweeted something about 'fuck-off-my-friend-idc-anymore'. She came up with 'hey, what's wrong?' even with emoticons on. I didn't expect anyone to respond to my tweets tho, because, hell, who cares to me. But I was extremely happy atm. It feels nice when someone actually cares to you.
She is planning to buy BTS' Season's Greeting this year. Hopefully she can managed to save some money for that, haha. She bought that CeCi magazine (which is the thing I really want too) and she told me that the bracelet (or ring?) was pretty.
I hope we can meet someday, maybe on BTS' concert? She is from Australia, well, idk how we will accidentally meet up.
And, oh, I watched the newest Bangtan Bomb just now. VMin friendship is just too cute to resist.
+ posted on 20141106 at 21:51
I'm going to talk about that~
Well, what exactly is that? American Hustle Life is the newest BTS's reality show. It is not just a simply reality show like they did previously; they even concept their upcoming album there, with a Hip Hop legend himself and...get a kind of training there. The second episode is coming this Thursday (and the subbed one will turn out on Friday or Saturday).
And please, if this random post is read by a random army, please note that this post is talking about ME WATCHING THIS, so this is only an OPINION. They are fine, I know, they ran into Germany yesterday so they fine, right? A little bit tired maybe (Jin looked tired on his newest vlog, I feel sad for him) but yes, they are fine (how many times I will repeat this word). So, if you don't want to read about oh-my-poor-taehyung or my-poor-dear-hoseok, please click the X button :)
Well, what exactly is that? American Hustle Life is the newest BTS's reality show. It is not just a simply reality show like they did previously; they even concept their upcoming album there, with a Hip Hop legend himself and...get a kind of training there. The second episode is coming this Thursday (and the subbed one will turn out on Friday or Saturday).
And please, if this random post is read by a random army, please note that this post is talking about ME WATCHING THIS, so this is only an OPINION. They are fine, I know, they ran into Germany yesterday so they fine, right? A little bit tired maybe (Jin looked tired on his newest vlog, I feel sad for him) but yes, they are fine (how many times I will repeat this word). So, if you don't want to read about oh-my-poor-taehyung or my-poor-dear-hoseok, please click the X button :)
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| Anyway, I can't see Taehyung properly :/ |
Well, everyone was commenting on Army Base Subs' Second Episode Preview about how rude how poor how this and how that... I'm agree with everyone that they need some training since they claimed their selves as a hip hop group. Seriously, their definition of hip hop isn't amusing enough, haha. I'm not into hip hop all this time so yeee-ah I don't want to argue with that.
Firstly, I felt bad for J-Hope on the beginning. They came to LA with those excited feelings and stuff, and suddenly, DANG! They were kidnapped by some strange men. It's frightening, seriously. I ever experienced something similar and it's pretty scary.
I didn't watch the preview of the first episode nor followed the news about that (because I wasn't online for a few days) and I straight away downloaded the first episode subbed version. When they were told to go to America and learn and blah blah blah, I felt something fishy, for real. The same feeling when I was afraid to go to the school for the first time. And somehow I managed to watch the first episode; with a lot of pauses and a bunch of gasps.
I will not watch this twice!!
Anyway Big Hit is getting serious with Bangtan, so they go to America to correct their English. From 2 kool 4 skool, to O!RUL82?, to Skool Luv Affair, to Dark and Wild. The English is spells correctly after they go to LA.
Just kidding.
But it's true, right??
I don't know why but I feel sorry to Taehyung here. When the kidnapper told them to come in and made bangtan stand up in line, he made a very straight face which is always on my face too when someone yelled at me or lectured me. And that very straight expression made a disrespecting-face which is always getting me into some trouble. I think if that kidnap thing is real, he will get something like 'what's with that expression?!' haha.
Still, this program is good for them tho. In case to increasing their hip hop thingy~ I'm looking forward for their up coming album. I bet it will be more hip hop-ish than before :D
Labels: BTS
+ posted on 20140731 at 00:23
So one night I accidentally watched this video, which was really touched my heart, haha. The video is a song by BTS's Leader, Rap Monster, titled Too Much. (I will write his name as Kim Namjoon after this, because... I like his Korean name more haha). Then maybe right after Namjoon uploaded his song into their SoundCloud, he made a vlog related with it. It's an old vlog, he recorded it (or uploaded it into BTS official channel in YT) on May 13th 2014.
This is the first time I watch Namjoon's vlog, because I've been preoccupied by Taehyung's or Jungkook's hahah. This is the first Namjoon's vlog I ever watch, and I already surprised by its content!
Well, firstly I didn't understand what he was saying. But then I realized he was talking about his newest show. I didn't exactly know what show it was, because, hey, I'm still new to them. But, I'm sure it's about being himself, based on his words in the video. I am me. Although he is now an idol, but he is still the old him. While I watched that vlog, his gesture was different with the usual Kim Namjoon who I watched on BTS dumb videos (sorry) like Bangtan Bombs or another reality show. Maturity. His mature side was very eye-catching on that video.
What can I get from that deeply-impressed video is; Idol is just a normal human like us. Namjoon said that after he debuted, he felt like hesitate. And compared to what he always said on his fans during interview, 'go find happiness', he actually confused whether he have found his own happiness or not. He felt like lost. But it's okay, like what he said on his vlog, it's okay to got lost once. Because it's normal. Everyone will pass that phase.
We always dream if we become an idol we will much happier, and all famous with those endless fans. Standing up in a big stage, achieving many awards, or recording our own reality show. If we really debut, and become an idol, it is possible that we will have the same thought like Namjoon. We already reach our goal, but are we really happy? With the busy schedule, thousand of showcases, tons of photoshoot, endless practice... I think what Namjoon wrote on the latest BTS_Festa's "Profile Written By Me" was nearly true. It has a column ask to write their most like and most dislike thing. The other member wrote the truth too, like Suga and Jin disliking dance, and Jimin disliking V haha. But uri leader wrote 'BTS' on both column, followed by another usual things he liked and disliked. So, he disliked BTS because of his responsibility with his position as a leader? Or because of his tiredness during his times when he become a member of BTS? We don't now. Only Namjoon and the God know.
The idols are normal people too; they need to rest, they need to refresh their mind as well. That's why I think overwork is not good. SMEnt did that, didn't they? The latest news was from EXO's Kris. Although I'm not an EXO fans, I hear that news because it's making my timeline crowded and noisy, haha. Well, if we want to talk about SMEnt overworking its artists, it's not the right time. Maybe next time.
Well, the conclusion is?
Seriously, I even don't understand what just I write. Some random thoughts on the middle of night.
Forgive me with those grammatically errors, and please don't try to understand what am I writing up there. I'm just surprised with this side of Namjoon.
Actually, he shows this side of his on his songs. He always make a deep meaning song, like Too Much and...and some songs on BTS album are have a great deep meaning too; like Tomorrow and We On.
Talented boys, very proud of them /clapped hands/
So! It's 11:02pm already, this is Alice's log, the end!
And Happy First Anniversary for BTS! It's July 13th anyway, but in Korea it's 13th already, right? :D
Good luck, and prove your name's meaning!
This is the first time I watch Namjoon's vlog, because I've been preoccupied by Taehyung's or Jungkook's hahah. This is the first Namjoon's vlog I ever watch, and I already surprised by its content!
Well, firstly I didn't understand what he was saying. But then I realized he was talking about his newest show. I didn't exactly know what show it was, because, hey, I'm still new to them. But, I'm sure it's about being himself, based on his words in the video. I am me. Although he is now an idol, but he is still the old him. While I watched that vlog, his gesture was different with the usual Kim Namjoon who I watched on BTS dumb videos (sorry) like Bangtan Bombs or another reality show. Maturity. His mature side was very eye-catching on that video.
What can I get from that deeply-impressed video is; Idol is just a normal human like us. Namjoon said that after he debuted, he felt like hesitate. And compared to what he always said on his fans during interview, 'go find happiness', he actually confused whether he have found his own happiness or not. He felt like lost. But it's okay, like what he said on his vlog, it's okay to got lost once. Because it's normal. Everyone will pass that phase.
We always dream if we become an idol we will much happier, and all famous with those endless fans. Standing up in a big stage, achieving many awards, or recording our own reality show. If we really debut, and become an idol, it is possible that we will have the same thought like Namjoon. We already reach our goal, but are we really happy? With the busy schedule, thousand of showcases, tons of photoshoot, endless practice... I think what Namjoon wrote on the latest BTS_Festa's "Profile Written By Me" was nearly true. It has a column ask to write their most like and most dislike thing. The other member wrote the truth too, like Suga and Jin disliking dance, and Jimin disliking V haha. But uri leader wrote 'BTS' on both column, followed by another usual things he liked and disliked. So, he disliked BTS because of his responsibility with his position as a leader? Or because of his tiredness during his times when he become a member of BTS? We don't now. Only Namjoon and the God know.
The idols are normal people too; they need to rest, they need to refresh their mind as well. That's why I think overwork is not good. SMEnt did that, didn't they? The latest news was from EXO's Kris. Although I'm not an EXO fans, I hear that news because it's making my timeline crowded and noisy, haha. Well, if we want to talk about SMEnt overworking its artists, it's not the right time. Maybe next time.
Well, the conclusion is?
Seriously, I even don't understand what just I write. Some random thoughts on the middle of night.
Forgive me with those grammatically errors, and please don't try to understand what am I writing up there. I'm just surprised with this side of Namjoon.
Actually, he shows this side of his on his songs. He always make a deep meaning song, like Too Much and...and some songs on BTS album are have a great deep meaning too; like Tomorrow and We On.
Talented boys, very proud of them /clapped hands/
So! It's 11:02pm already, this is Alice's log, the end!
And Happy First Anniversary for BTS! It's July 13th anyway, but in Korea it's 13th already, right? :D
Good luck, and prove your name's meaning!
+ posted on 20140612 at 23:05
