Hello. This is May and April post, because I didn't post anything on April, sorry.

Current mood is: confused.
Stanning BTS is really not healthy. Their newest music video is making me crying for these past week; like, seriously crying, with tears running on the cheeks and all those fanfiction-ish thing.
I'm proudly stating that I didn't cry when I watched Miracle in Cell No. 7 two years ago, but I cry because of Hoseok's acting on I Need U. Really, they know what are they doing.

Hoseok's part in the music video, somehow, seems like very realistic. I'm not saying that he's into drugs too in the reality. The fact that Hoseok is the vitamin of the group and we rarely see him down really hits me. He is always positive and full of energy, eventhough we can see that he's tired and sleepy.
Watching Hoseok's acting on I Need U music video; it appears as Hoseok's other side to me. I mean, it's very understandable if he really drinks those drugs...
No, please, no. I DON'T WANT THAT. I SWEAR.

When the first MV was out, Hoseok's part was the one that made me crying lol I used four tissue papers at that time. The part when he walked on the bridge, and gave us that blank expression -UGH, I cried the most at that part. It's kinda like he was showing his another side to us. It's like we are looking at Hoseok in this MV, it's not J-Hope but it's Hoseok.
Who knows that actually he is experiencing something not nice when the camera is off, and when the camera is on, he's turning into that happy happy J-Hope that always ARMY know.
Idol is a mask, and we, the fans, will never know what's behind the mask unless they open it by themselves.
AND WHEN THE ORIGINAL MV IS OUT oh my god.
When Hoseok swallowed the pills and when he fell down on the road, oh my god, I couldn't even breathe when I saw the MV for the first time.
It's still making me cry until now, tho.

Taehyung's part, somehow, is very cool. He stabbed the man, and he's covered in blood, yeah, man, that's cool.
After his incident with netizen a few days ago, watching him on the MV again, surprisingly, also made me cry too.
FYI, I do watch the music video for idk how many times, I lost count already.
When Taehyung stabbed the man, the reality that hits me is "What if he ever wanted to do some violent things to unstressed himself?"
I don't say that stabbing man is good for refresh you up, but, well, I don't know how is that idea appearing in my head.
I have a theory on this actually, haha.
In most of their music videos, they always broke things; No More Dream, N.O, Boy In Luv, Danger, and now I Need U. I think they also using that scene to released their stress.
And when I rewatched Taehyung's part in I Need U, I couldn't help thinking that "This is Taehyung, not V."
Same with Hoseok's case, ugh.

At this rate, I can cry with just thinking about Hoseok's alter ego and my theories above...
I'm wasting too many tissue papers just for him. They turned me into a crybaby, really.

Anyway, SHINee's comeback with View this month. I can't buy their first press album, by the way, because I bought BTS's Hwayangyeonwha AHAHAH white version.
THEIR TEASER IS SUCH A TEASE -girls' legs on the first teaser, and a girl on their second photo teaser ohmygod. Please don't use sexy concept on them, please. Just use the girl to walk by (like Jessica did on Sherlock, or like their Japan MVs) PLEASE DON'T LET THEM TOUCH THE GIRL UGH.

Current condition is good. I did the chemist test well, and the exam is coming this month. I have a debate competition on this Sunday, I hope I can ditch this competition, let me sick please please so I can't attend the competition.

Well, this is the end of this month's post!
Goodbye.

Labels: BTS, Comeback, Night, Whatever