So I haven't post since one month ago, and actually I didn't have a spare night tonight but I decided to write again in this blog.

Hello!
There's a lot of things happen in the beginning of 2016. The most important thing that I've been waited from a long time is my graduation, and that also follows by my national final exam. I didn't pass three of six subjects, but I don't care. Really.

My school's graduation party went great. I dressed in kebaya and I did my own make up and hairdo. I didn't look as fab as the others, but I was very satisfied with my own work. Sadly Azki wasn't in the party so, well, I wished I can take a photo with him, but nah. I didn't mind it too much, tho, since I managed to do a proper apology to him, ahaha.

Enough about graduation. (I think I will write about it later, tho.)
The bad surprise was also coming to my family this year. My grandpa died. It was quite a chaotic morning when my mum called my father about the news. It was the second day of my national final exam, it was chemistry.

My mum left to Bali two weeks before the news, because my uncle suddenly called. He said that grandpa was sick. It was Sunday, if I'm not mistaken. Idk. And the whole family left to Bali immediately. I was alone in the house! Yay! I even made two songs because nobody was in the house. I watched DAPG videos until late and woke up very early on the next day to feed my cats on the second house.
Yes, I was looking after two houses.

I was free for, I don't know, three days? Four days? I don't remember. Then my father came home since my sister was having exam week too. And then I was going to face chemistry test when the phone call came...

I made a post about my alone days in the house, I don't really sure why I made it but then it can be a blog post material, so, yeah.

Fast forward to May, I had a STMKG entrance test in Surabaya. I passed the first test but the second wasn't. Actually I don't really look forward to this school because if I was accepted, I was afraid I can't survive there, lmao. It was a semi-military school, and I wasn't sure I can keep up with the tension there.
I had a quite fun time in my neighbour's house in Surabaya, tho.

And then I was singing in the very first Japanese event in Jember! Yay! I sang Yuki Kajiura and Revo's Sajin no Kanata He. With Haruu and Kharisma-senpai too, of course. I won't have a link to those kind of things if it's not Haruu. To be honest, she was the one who was invited, but she tagged us along and, yay, the performance went good! One of the judges (Xhinji-san) was very impressed, lmao. He talked about us in his note. Before this, I don't even think about the fun when the audience cheered for you, lmao.

Anyway, I still have four more uni tests to do. Need to study, since the main test (what) will  be held on May 31st. Pray for me, please.

Anyway, I will post my daily post (what) when I was alone in the house.

Labels: curcol, experience

It's 12:27am when I write this; on my sister's laptop and facing a bunch of paper works. My wi-fi is broken, so I can't use it as a wi-fi anymore. It has to be connected through a yellow cable and become an ethernet connection. I can't use my own laptop because its battery is broken since... 3 years ago? It need to be charged all the time, so it isn't very nice to move it away from my study table inside my room.

This year is not going well, for me. The second year of high school is a very fun year, most of people said. It is fun indeed; my new class is not as bad as the old one, meets new people, going back innto my fangirl mode, being the senior on the school club, and etc. etc. But it is going harder as well; the lessons, the homeworks, the activities...

On the first day of being a second grader I told myself to study harder, start thinking about the future school, start to planning about this and that, and other thing that connected with 'my-future-life'. But it's not going well like I imagined. It's my own fault, I think. The main problem is I can't focus to one thing; both from the school side and from myself. Wait, let me explain.

My father always told me that us people is not perfect. It is just right to not being super on math but genius on literature. Each people has its own specialty. But the school nowadays -the Indonesian school- is not using that phrase. We need to get A or minimum B- on every subject to pass. So we can't focus to one subject that we mastered the most. Or else we can't pass.

I have a hard time in learning the science subjects; Science Math, Physic, and Chemist. It's not like I can't calculate the amount of energy. I just need to study more intensely and seriously. I already have a study-plan in my mind, but it always failed because I have no time.

Then, I can't focus to one thing because I get bored easily. I have a plan (again. Count how many plans I have in this post).) to regularly make a short story and gather it as a book and publish it. Or just simply send it to a magazine. It walked smoothly at first. I had done thirteen short story, but because it's mainly a random things (which I think the girly magazine I aimed to will not accept that kind of story) I think to make a new one.
And until now I haven't done a single page. I have three drafts of fanfictions, a bunch of drafts of my short story, and (maybe) two or three novel-possible ideas. I just can't manage my mood.

And manage my time! I need to study, I need to finish a LOT of proposals, invitation, and my club's secretary works, and I need to watch all those unwatched k-dramas and anime. I have 'Let Me Hear Your Voice' and 'It's Okay, That's Love' unwatched. I have 'Love Stage!', 'Free! Eternal Summer', 'Haikyuu!', 'Soul Eater', 'Black Butler Season 1,2', and 'Natsume Yuujinchou Season 1,2'. Oh God.

And I still need to download Haikyuu and Love Stage; and a LOT of k-pop videos I haven't watch yet like BTS American Hustle Life ep 6-8 (plus all the unreleased cuts), SHINee's latest activity, and 48Family activity!

Then this year's problem is money! Everything is getting expensive; my money oh my money. I bought BTS Dark&Wild on the previous month, that's the first time I bought an album with my own money lol. I need to pay my class shirt, class jersey and any other things. I want to buy this and that (Taemin's ACE, Akmu's Play, BTS N.O shirt, and Japanese School Bag) but I have no money left for those unimportant things.
It's important.
No, it's not.

Oh and I've been distracted by BTS lately. I SERIOUSLY NEED TO MANAGE  MY TIME because I kept a bunch of taekook and yoonmin and namjin fanfic on my phone haha. Just in case I'm bored or something.

Well, it's 1:21am already.
Always wish me a luck, good night.

Labels: Bad Day, curcol, english, experience, HIGHSCHOOL, Night, Whatever

Hah, doki-doki apaan emang? Bukan yang biasanya (emang yang biasanya apa) tapi yang satu ini cukup bikin stress. Sudah dibuat pusing dengan urusan-urusan sekolah yang menumpuk (anyway, katanya sekolahku kelas dua bakalan di rolling) ditambah lagi dengan tes AFS yang bakal menyerang hari Minggu besok (27/04)! Aku siap, aku siap, aku siap.... /chanting like Spongebob/ |∴め ϖ め∴|

Omong-omong, tes AFS ini (katanya sih) pertama di Jember, dan penyuluhannya ada di sekolahku. Untung deh, jadi bisa dapat info dan ikutan daftar.
Setelah browsing soal AFS ini di internet, muncul beberapa testimoni dari anak-anak yang pernah ikutan tesnya, mulai dari yang cuma lolos sampai tahap dua sampai yang lolos semuanya. Lumayan bikin stress, karena kalau dipikir-pikir "gue bisa apa nahlo". Tapi stay positive aja deh. Kali aja Allah ngijinin dan aku bisa membawakan kalian sebotol salju ori dari Japan, hehehe.

Banyak nonton tv! Update soal berita-berita terkini! Waini. Aku lumayan males nonton tv soalnya di tv gaada acara menarik sih /plak (￣◇￣;). Aku nggak begitu suka acara-acara reality show di tv lokal (kecuali reality show di NET. atau beberapa talkshow yang benar-benar bermutu menurutku) dan lebih suka nonton lepi daripada nonton tv, hahaha. Karena di lepi ada duniaaa /plak. Dan lagi, tv di ruang sebelah kamarku ini rada bureng. Tambah bikin males deh.

Uh, makin banyak aja masalah yang bikin down. (;´Д`)

Ah, stay positive, Alice! Doakan saja aku bisa lolos tes tahap satu ya, minna~ ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ

Labels: AFS, experience