It's 12:27am when I write this; on my sister's laptop and facing a bunch of paper works. My wi-fi is broken, so I can't use it as a wi-fi anymore. It has to be connected through a yellow cable and become an ethernet connection. I can't use my own laptop because its battery is broken since... 3 years ago? It need to be charged all the time, so it isn't very nice to move it away from my study table inside my room.

This year is not going well, for me. The second year of high school is a very fun year, most of people said. It is fun indeed; my new class is not as bad as the old one, meets new people, going back innto my fangirl mode, being the senior on the school club, and etc. etc. But it is going harder as well; the lessons, the homeworks, the activities...

On the first day of being a second grader I told myself to study harder, start thinking about the future school, start to planning about this and that, and other thing that connected with 'my-future-life'. But it's not going well like I imagined. It's my own fault, I think. The main problem is I can't focus to one thing; both from the school side and from myself. Wait, let me explain.

My father always told me that us people is not perfect. It is just right to not being super on math but genius on literature. Each people has its own specialty. But the school nowadays -the Indonesian school- is not using that phrase. We need to get A or minimum B- on every subject to pass. So we can't focus to one subject that we mastered the most. Or else we can't pass.

I have a hard time in learning the science subjects; Science Math, Physic, and Chemist. It's not like I can't calculate the amount of energy. I just need to study more intensely and seriously. I already have a study-plan in my mind, but it always failed because I have no time.

Then, I can't focus to one thing because I get bored easily. I have a plan (again. Count how many plans I have in this post).) to regularly make a short story and gather it as a book and publish it. Or just simply send it to a magazine. It walked smoothly at first. I had done thirteen short story, but because it's mainly a random things (which I think the girly magazine I aimed to will not accept that kind of story) I think to make a new one.
And until now I haven't done a single page. I have three drafts of fanfictions, a bunch of drafts of my short story, and (maybe) two or three novel-possible ideas. I just can't manage my mood.

And manage my time! I need to study, I need to finish a LOT of proposals, invitation, and my club's secretary works, and I need to watch all those unwatched k-dramas and anime. I have 'Let Me Hear Your Voice' and 'It's Okay, That's Love' unwatched. I have 'Love Stage!', 'Free! Eternal Summer', 'Haikyuu!', 'Soul Eater', 'Black Butler Season 1,2', and 'Natsume Yuujinchou Season 1,2'. Oh God.

And I still need to download Haikyuu and Love Stage; and a LOT of k-pop videos I haven't watch yet like BTS American Hustle Life ep 6-8 (plus all the unreleased cuts), SHINee's latest activity, and 48Family activity!

Then this year's problem is money! Everything is getting expensive; my money oh my money. I bought BTS Dark&Wild on the previous month, that's the first time I bought an album with my own money lol. I need to pay my class shirt, class jersey and any other things. I want to buy this and that (Taemin's ACE, Akmu's Play, BTS N.O shirt, and Japanese School Bag) but I have no money left for those unimportant things.
It's important.
No, it's not.

Oh and I've been distracted by BTS lately. I SERIOUSLY NEED TO MANAGE  MY TIME because I kept a bunch of taekook and yoonmin and namjin fanfic on my phone haha. Just in case I'm bored or something.

Well, it's 1:21am already.
Always wish me a luck, good night.

Labels: Bad Day, curcol, english, experience, HIGHSCHOOL, Night, Whatever