Yes. This is a real life. This is not a fanfiction world, or story, or other places that everything can be true. This is not a world that will provide a sweet scent of vanilla on someone's hair, nor a life where you can just run away if you mad with your parents. No. This is a real life, where you can't predict what will happen next.

I was angry at something. I didn't even know why and what. There's a time when I even didn't understand myself. Mood swings. I could easily get mad to all those silly actions that my sister did, or something that was not on the right place.

I tried to calm myself down with reading some fanfictions, but that made me angrier. I mean, those stupid words like 'smelled his cherry-sweet scent' or 'I found him on the playground alone' and 'He rested his head onto the older's neck' and all! Really, a natural cherry scent on someone? Boys? Weren't they use the manlier scent instead of cherry? Playground? Oh, that usual spot for played, reunited, saw the stars, kissed, confessed, and all of romantic scene. Rested his head? Snuggled? Oh, like hell it will happen.

Yess I know that is a usual thing for a short romantic silly story called fanfictions. I even made one. I like to read fanfictions, really, I subscribed too many stories on my AFF account. But my condition now is like hell and I just want to sleep earlier. I'm so sorry author-nim, I'm just not in a good mood today.

And why I'm updating like this?

And anyway, I really want to sleep nicely tonight. But my phone is vibrating over and over again because of my friends's chat. Guys, I'm seriously tired right now and I don't want to listen to your shits tonight. I don't know if this is true, but it seems like I'm the one that always give in to everyone. I still pay attention and reply to your messages when I'm sleepy, I still want to listen to your serious talk while my serious talk is always turned down by everyone. I give advices, while no one give me a meaningful advice when I need it. So, yeah, everyone will say something like 'oh, if you don't say it out loud, nobody will know!' or 'you say it's okay!' or else something like misunderstood problem will appear and will cause other complicated problems.
I'm already have no one to talk with because of my bad habits, seriously, where can I go to let this heavy feels away? The only one I have is you, my lovely blog, and that's what I'm doing now; writing to something that can't respond me back and try to calm myself down.

Sudden bad mood. What. I hate it. Why I can't control myself. This whole post is nonsense. I even don't know whether my grammars are right or not. Well I don't give a shit anymore. I hope I will recover by tomorrow.

Labels: Bad Day, Whatever