Play. Pause.

You open your eyes, very slowly, and stared to the empty ceiling above you. No, your mom is not there, she is not burning there like the Winchester's do. There is nothing there.

But, suddenly you realize. Well, you have a sudden realization about yourself, it's great. 

You was thinking about all those actions you'd make. All those distance you'd create. Suddenly you realize that it was not on purpose. 
Well, it was on purpose, but you didn't realize that it will become like that.

Rewind.

Can you? You can't.

Now you are separated by distance, a real distance, and you don't even know whether is that your fault or not. You blame yourself for everything, like usual.

Wait, you do a mutual conversation earlier, right?

But you don't think it will help?

What a pity.

Play. Pause.

You stare at your phone. Its light is too bright. Mini balloons keep popping up on the screen, containing words and sentences.

Suddenly you realize that it was all about jealousy. You love it too much. It hurts.

What a hideous word.

You didn't think you will be ignored like that? It is not an ignorance, you, silly. It's all on your head. It's only in your head.

But, still.

You think it was your fault, aren't you?
Ah, as usual.

Rewind.

Can you? You can, but you don't want to.

Was that hurt? Yes? A lot? You did a great act yesterday, then. Congratulation.

Play. Pause.

Rewind.

Oh, the cassette is broken.

No, no, it is not your fault, really.

What? You can't help it?

But there's no point in blaming yourself for everything and do nothing to repair that, sweetie.

What, I am cruel? Ho, didn't I tell you earlier?

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